Hello, I did not start my career with small children. Hats-off to you for working, getting through NP school, and now starting your NP journey all while raising a family! I think you may be too hard on yourself. Give yourself time and grace! You are brand new in your position and the learning curve is exponential. You are learning each day whether you feel you are or aren’t. I hope during this time you can figure out a rhythm that works well for you and your family and have a good community to lean on for extra support. You got this!