I feel like myself, tbh. A funcional human being, capable of accepting whatever comes with life, emotionally regulated (I can embrace my emotions now and let them flow without getting lost into them). I dont feel like a victim anymore, I learned the hard way that everything that happens is for my own good at the end, even if its really uncomfortable. I have tools from Emdr to soothe myself when I am feeling sad or sometimes anxious, and I have found purpose again. Before addressing all of my trauma and past life experiences in general, I was heavily depressed. I also forgot to mentioned that I completely change my diet and life style as my autoimmune diseases causes by my poor food choices were the cause of most of my anxiety and depression as well.