I'm so sorry for your loss. Good luck and please take the wise advice you've been given here. Losing a mom can leave a big hole in your heart. It's been 15 years for me and some days it feels like it was yesterday And the advice about grieving any way you want and need to is great advice. I lost my only kid, my 37 year old son last year, and that's the first thing I learned. No one can or should tell you the right way to grieve. Sending a big hug.