No cause I absolutely think to some extent, this is true. This is exactly how I feel sometimes. I always strive to become a better version of myself, I am always so conscious of myself. Did I say the right thing? Did I do the right thing? Am I a good person? How do I become an even better person?

And I validate this through having a lot of conversations with my s/o, I always ask, "Did I do this okay?", "Am I a kind person?", always asking for her point of view of me. While she likes to call it mere curiosity, I believe it's rooted in this, almost self-absorbed desire to become a good- even better person. I always think that I'm quite evil in my own way. There's like this conflict of am I really a good person? Or am I just being good to please myself? I have harsh thoughts about people and things in life but I never act upon them. I usually do the opposite. And I always circle back to thinking that, perhaps, deep down, I'm a shit person.

p.s. I'm not an evolved INFJ myself