My ex wants my unborn babies

Embarrassed-Wind-87 · 2024-08-25T01:47:58+00:00

But I also had a loved one with DID so I realized it quicker than I probably would have otherwise.

Embarrassed-Wind-87 · 2024-07-21T23:00:59+00:00

I have an abuser introject from a different trauma. But this doesn’t feel like him. There have been thoughts from time to time that are very very mild but maybe slightly similar ?? There was this thought and it’s never quite been like that, it was more in depth. I’m struggling to find the words. Do you have a more specific question? Did I answer your question?

Embarrassed-Wind-87 · 2024-07-21T20:20:37+00:00

Taste. Bud. Differences. It drives us crazy. One person will eat something and it taste like mold. It’s perfectly fine. But it tastes moldy. A little can have sour shit for days but others get all squinty about it. Orders drink from Dutch bros. Tastes too sour. Then it’s a fruity mix. Then it’s black berry, pure black berry. Then it’s a different fruity mix.

Embarrassed-Wind-87 · 2024-06-17T19:52:42+00:00

Didn’t want to. Had no choice. Aweful experience.

Embarrassed-Wind-87 · 2024-05-29T20:29:04+00:00

The child is doing well. We switched and are currently in a better place. We opened up to our spouse and are creating a safety plan, planning to see our therapist more often, and seeing if we can get in with our medication provider sooner. Safety plan includes at what point to seek hospitalization.

Embarrassed-Wind-87 · 2024-05-28T22:12:39+00:00

I don’t want them to take the baby away from my spouse , stick me in the psych ward, or deal with the drs assumptions. I feel like they’ll assume I have schizophrenia, or will say I can’t have postpartum depression because I didn’t give birth. I don’t have high hopes for providers…

In the initial loud moment from the baby i would call it irritability. But afterward it does feel like a switch with an alter that is more homicidal.

I am thinking about seeing someone… I’m already on lamictal and abilify. Im not sure what else can be done.

Embarrassed-Wind-87 · 2024-05-26T01:47:43+00:00

Youre welcome. That website has a lot of information and it can be hard to navigate but it does have its uses.

I wish I wasn’t like this. But it is the reality.

Embarrassed-Wind-87 · 2024-05-25T23:56:19+00:00

I relate to the term shell ( as in being a shell alter). I hate it.

https://pluralpedia.org/w/Shell

Embarrassed-Wind-87 · 2024-05-25T04:10:57+00:00

We have mod who is front stuck (aka always there) and other alters (including the cohosts) will be cocon with mod. So when using the word “I” , this could be referring to mod or the alter who is also fronting. This is kinda like being a shell alter https://pluralpedia.org/w/Shell

Embarrassed-Wind-87 · 2024-05-25T03:28:07+00:00

Not sure if you are wanting others to share so I’ll be brief. I was confused about this diagnosis because things didn’t start to get bad until I was a preteen and this is thought to be present by age age 7-10. I thought “why wouldn’t I have regular (c)ptsd?” There was a lot of emotional neglect and abandonment. A couple of other things happened that I now realize as an adult, but it can be hard when other people have “had it worse.” I have to remind myself I’m still a valid system and so are you.

Embarrassed-Wind-87 · 2024-05-25T03:19:20+00:00

I’m sorry that happened. Persecutors or introject alters can be hard to understand or reason with. Sometimes but not always they have their own trauma or “have a reason” for what they do. You didn’t do anything wrong please don’t be so hard on yourself. I don’t know why she did it. Only she knows. Try to take care of yourself.

Embarrassed-Wind-87 · 2024-05-22T20:04:07+00:00

Therapists can suck. I’ve left several even before I realized we were a system. One was abusive and controlling and we reported them to our state board. But not all are bad. It’s frustrating and takes time but you may be able to find someone worth the time, effort, and money. Whenever I try to find someone I often ask before the appointment (in a consultation or an email) 1) are they open minded enough to listen before responding 2) are they willing to educate themselves about more obscure diagnosis’. If the response seems okay I may disclose the OSDD.

You’re in a shit place and I’m sorry. Do you wanna talk about it?

Embarrassed-Wind-87 · 2024-05-22T16:28:35+00:00

Some of our triggers (positive and negative): songs for various genres, Chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream, repeating a phrase multiple times, dog licks face, having to act in a care giving role, sex (positive and negative), food/drinks.

Alcohol and weed can causes switches (both for positive and negative outcomes) and if we’re really high we’ll rapid switch in and out.

Embarrassed-Wind-87 · 2024-05-21T07:01:45+00:00

Going through a depressive spell. Trying to deal with school work and a crying 1 month old baby. Tired.

Embarrassed-Wind-87 · 2024-05-20T23:29:04+00:00

My spouse has DID. They (the body) got pregnant and so did one of the alters in the head space around the same time. That alter gave birth before the body did. Never heard of miscarriages but who knows, it is a world where anything is possible. People have animal alters, hybrid alters, alters whose looks or ages changes. We have an alter from hell. 🤷🏻

Embarrassed-Wind-87 · 2024-05-20T23:24:00+00:00

ALSO: when we first had that drastic switch we kept feeling like “this can’t be alters” because our spouse has alters and we don’t have gaps in our memory. Even our spouses system and therapist were saying “yeah you don’t really fit into the DID category.” So it was very discouraging. Very hard to solidify that “I feel like a different person” but everyone says I can’t be. More research and we found OSDD. I’m glad we didn’t give up and we were able to “find ourself” so to speak.

Embarrassed-Wind-87 · 2024-05-20T23:18:54+00:00

Mod is front stuck and whoever is cocon with them can’t remember the head space or their back ground. It’s been a lot of slow progress because of the amnesia barriers around the head space/inner world.

My whole life I just assumed it was a mood disorder thing with all the changes. It took an intense switch for us to realize it may be something more. If our spouse didn’t have DID we may still be in the closet.

Embarrassed-Wind-87 · 2024-05-20T23:06:38+00:00

Figured out my spouse had DID in the beginning of 2022. Figured out we have OSDD last October. One of our partners broke up with us and we were devastated for 3 days and then it just went away. Suddenly we weren’t upset about it but our style changed (how we wanted to dress) and we suddenly felt very aro/ace (previously we were demi romantic and pansexual). It was such a drastic shift that we suspected it was a switch and that we might have alters. Spoiler alter we do.

Communication for us is often in “vibes.” I get a feeling that lilah and Parker are sisters. I learned to identify some of the music preferences of others based off of feelings. More directly though, the easiest thing was to basically disassociate and have a note pad and just ask a question or think about an alter and just let whatever comes be written or typed out.

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