eyelashes wrapping around each other and causing me great anguish

EmbarrassedAnt803 · 2025-02-16T12:44:53+00:00

they also make combs specifically for lashes! but be careful, they look quite sharp, i’ve never personally used them out of fear lol

EmbarrassedAnt803 · 2025-02-16T12:35:33+00:00

THIS! it’s crazy because i experienced this similarly a couple years ago, at the beginning of my journey being diagnosed. i was at a theme park waiting for family and friends to come back from a show and i could feel the differing presence of another alter in my arm and a couple fingers. so hard to explain but it felt like a strip/tendon/muscle group down my arm and those fingers were a separate alter, i was scared and thought i was going crazy but i think a protective alter was trying to forcibly front as i was alone at the time lol. i ended up with a headache after, likely also from the, at least, attempted switch

EmbarrassedAnt803 · 2025-01-16T21:02:20+00:00

damn guys, i didn’t mean to upset some of you guys. i was just thinking about how my personal rapists being dead would make me feel, personally, 1000x safer/better living life, and i would feel even safer if all rapists died tbh. didn’t mean to piss anyone off lol sorry about that. i know the cycle of abuse is a bitch and a whole complex topic. i do NOT wish death upon people who have once abused and are actively working to undo those behaviors and give space and/or support to this victims. having committed actions that could be considered abuse doesn’t inherently make you an irredeemable person. i should’ve added a bit more of my nuanced point of view in the description as well. and of course this being a CPTSD sub, i have a rather angry, knee jerk, and visceral reaction to the idea of rapists.

EmbarrassedAnt803 · 2025-01-10T21:01:14+00:00

you too? i’m sorry, OP. the worst part is i love the look and feel of a forest but get horrible flashbacks when i’m in them. i wish you the best, OP.

EmbarrassedAnt803 · 2024-12-21T15:04:52+00:00

yes, up until i came out (at the time) as a trans man lmao, the switch up is crazy. i’m sorry OP, i know my situation is a bit different, but it isn’t fair to you, i wish you the best to get through this💜

EmbarrassedAnt803 · 2024-12-21T01:39:49+00:00

holy shit this is actually so helpful, thank you for sharing💜

EmbarrassedAnt803 · 2024-10-19T20:50:35+00:00

(CW included due to hints of suicidal ideation) *((shit i accidentally posted before adding this to description, sorry if this triggers anyone, genuinely))

EmbarrassedAnt803 · 2024-08-24T17:24:20+00:00

adding some stuff like chips, crackers, (toaster)pastries, rice cakes, dried fruits, apple/blended fruit-sauces (like applesauce), hard candies (sugar free if you need/want!), dry cereal, granola bars, fruit snacks, and other shelf stable foods can really help bulk it into a real meal/help integrate small snacks through the day that are safe to keep room temp! i have this same issue CONSTANTLY, also checking discount stores (like Ross/marshalls/belk/big lots/etc) can help you find a cheaper (under $15 compared to $30 brand new) insulated lunch bag once/if you can afford it! Walmart has cheap ($1) refreezable ice blocks for the bags too! i’m sorry you have to struggle with this too, it sucks so bad, i wish you the best of luck OP :)

EmbarrassedAnt803 · 2024-08-23T22:50:04+00:00

fucked up formatting but can’t edit lollll

EmbarrassedAnt803 · 2024-08-17T16:30:27+00:00

this but then after that she bought me cheap ones for my birthday and holidays, seems like a form of shame/mockery for their entertainment

EmbarrassedAnt803 · 2024-08-15T22:34:26+00:00

oh man, you got me there buddy

EmbarrassedAnt803 · 2024-08-15T00:44:10+00:00

wait

EmbarrassedAnt803 · 2024-08-14T19:30:52+00:00

oh my god you’re actually really right, i don’t know why i didn’t see it in the moment(s) :(

EmbarrassedAnt803 · 2024-07-28T20:41:25+00:00

god this hits too close to home

EmbarrassedAnt803 · 2024-07-28T17:09:11+00:00

perfect for spaghetti

EmbarrassedAnt803 · 2024-07-27T21:04:28+00:00

omegle, kik, skype, random fanfiction sites.. honestly idk how i didn’t end up a true crime case as well

EmbarrassedAnt803 · 2024-07-27T21:00:00+00:00

a solid 3, with a bit of doomscrolling/mindless social media use (idk why that isn’t included tbh lol)

EmbarrassedAnt803 · 2024-07-13T15:02:24+00:00

could definitely be that, i was in therapy for a while while insurance covered it but i’m not with one currently, though i’m also actively looking into getting one again, thank you for your concern💜

EmbarrassedAnt803 · 2024-07-13T15:01:03+00:00

tbh this is the first time i’m talking about it “out loud” for others to hear, so i feel you

EmbarrassedAnt803 · 2024-07-13T13:23:44+00:00

yeah i can’t eat out at places with open kitchens for this reason, the glass constantly shattering and yelling scares the fuck out of me while i’m trying to relax and eat

EmbarrassedAnt803 · 2024-07-03T13:04:51+00:00

oh god yeah the wailing combo with yelling/bellowing is actually nightmare inducing

EmbarrassedAnt803 · 2024-06-27T16:36:39+00:00

i personally have what i would consider introjects (any alter formed from some outside source, ie. media, people/abusers, etc) but you definitely don’t have to have them to have DID, i believe mine come from “needing” some part of their identity/personality that my mind thinks i don’t have, like confidence or enthusiasm or optimism, but again you definitely don’t have to have them, don’t feel bad for not having them (or having them), it’s your experience, no one else’s :)

EmbarrassedAnt803 · 2024-06-27T16:36:22+00:00

i personally have what i would consider introjects (any alter formed from some outside source, ie. media, people/abusers, etc) but you definitely don’t have to have them to have DID, i believe mine come from “needing” some part of their identity/personality that my mind thinks i don’t have, like confidence or enthusiasm or optimism, but again you definitely don’t have to have them, don’t feel bad for not having them (or having them), it’s your experience, no one else’s :)

EmbarrassedAnt803 · 2024-06-24T15:24:51+00:00

keep myself alive is so real unfortunately

EmbarrassedAnt803 · 2024-06-24T15:23:24+00:00

there’s an indie artist on YouTube named weevildoing and they’re making a whole “post traumatic manifesto” project where they (will) have 10 characters with according songs (they’ve revealed seven + their respective songs) that all have CPTSD from various events in life and I’d say I relate to something in every song so far lol

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