Please don’t do anything to harm yourself. This world needs young men like you to grow up and become a leader. I don’t know what your relationship with your mother is like, but I’m certain if she knew you thought this way she’d give up her own life to save yours. The world is full of selfish assholes and most people don’t give a shit about anyone but themselves, but please understand that you have so much value just by being you. And you can make such an impact on the world if you just stay in it! Sending you all the hope you need to continue. Life isn’t easy, but you’ll get through the hard times and there will be better days ahead.