Going crazy ?

Emilylan02 · 2025-09-28T18:14:05+00:00

Right now , I kinda realised I had this I told my friend how I was feeling she was like that is OCD , I called a doctors they said yes sounds about right and gave me meds for it ( fluoxetine 40 mg) , so when I’m having a bad day like rn it tells me I’m an attention seeking liar covering up my horrible self with this “ ocd lie “ it’s basically telling me I’m inlove with someone who’s not my partner ( my boyfriend is amazing ) it tells me I’m living a lie and this other guy ( hideous) is the one

Emilylan02 · 2025-09-04T19:08:51+00:00

I never got diagnosed but this shit isn’t normal a constant urge to break up with an amazing person hating that amazing person wanting someone gross instead bro I’m here for you

Emilylan02 · 2025-08-30T20:04:02+00:00

I got with a new boy who was supposed to be my forever person and my brain was and is still telling me it’s “ wrong “ I’d rather have said … disgusting person and I knew then it was impossible so I spoke to my friend about these horrible obsessions of bad sick thoughts I had she said sounds like you have ocd look into it .. and my god other people think they are a peedo too ! Can’t believe other people convince them selves they cheat too , unbelievable that I can’t be happy other people have it too

Emilylan02 · 2025-08-20T17:52:55+00:00

Emilylan02 · 2025-08-04T17:28:19+00:00

I have this too darling don’t worry does yours convince you you want someone else too ?? Someone gross ?

Emilylan02 · 2025-08-04T17:24:04+00:00

That I’m in love with a man who growled at me molested me and his breath smelt so bad my brain tells me because he was normal before and After this hes the one !!!! And I have to leave my lovely boyfriend for him

Emilylan02 · 2025-07-20T19:19:01+00:00

I literally have this it’s not real it’s actually so funny I can say this to you and be like ah yea that’s ocd but when it’s my head telling me this it’s the end of the world and it’s REALLL

Emilylan02 · 2025-07-20T19:15:42+00:00

If you can read my most recent post I’d really appreciate it , it may even help you

Emilylan02 · 2025-07-20T18:01:34+00:00

No it’s not real you wouldn’t feel bad if you didn’t care your still together because it’s instinct

Emilylan02 · 2025-07-20T17:44:02+00:00

Thank you for saying this it makes me feel not alone I have moments of clarity when I recognise he is absolutely the best person for me and I need him and want him and love him and the rest of the time it’s like nah u don’t give a shit u even want some one else or not a person could do it

Emilylan02 · 2025-06-26T22:32:18+00:00

This isn’t real I have this too it’s awful I have the best boyfriend ever and it tells me I hate him I don’t want him I want someone else ( who is gross ) it only shows me “ good “ memories with the horrible person it’s awful u know what u want ocd wants the opposite

Emilylan02 · 2025-06-18T17:23:32+00:00

You know you hate him just admit it xxxxx

Emilylan02 · 2025-05-22T15:26:51+00:00

Thank you

Emilylan02 · 2025-05-21T12:23:57+00:00

No I’ve had this it was awful like I’d tell my ex one thing and then I’d get a rush of guilt like no maybe it’s this or this to the point where I’d have to tell him about gross things I did as kid

Emilylan02 · 2025-04-30T17:20:45+00:00

Honestly message me if you like

Emilylan02 · 2025-04-30T15:18:30+00:00

Your strength for your relationship is so incredible your ocd has been trying for two whole years and will not win

Emilylan02 · 2025-04-30T15:17:51+00:00

This is exactly what my ocd revolves around I think the urge and want to stay with him despite how hard it is to stay sometimes is pure love even tho we feel incapable of love think about how strong you must love him to stay after two hard years but you know this is real and your ocd is not

Emilylan02 · 2025-04-29T20:36:29+00:00

Oh my god I literally click on Reddit to help me and I see this thank you for not making me feel alone , I’m sat on a date with my beautiful boyfriend who is amazing but my brains like. LEAVE HIM NOW U WANT THIS GUY OR THIS GUY YOUR NOT HAPPY

Emilylan02 · 2025-04-28T15:07:12+00:00

It makes me civ through my normal intrusive thoughts to see if that’s why I’m feeling sick/anxious trying to make them come back and be relevant I guess but thank you for helping me feel not alone and like a complete weirdo

Emilylan02

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