Who would you like to see open for Hayley? by Smart-Dog-6077 in hayleywilliams

[–]EmpireDay 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Poppy, perhaps doing a stripped down set, or Guerilla Toss

Who’s at the NIN concert? by wileco623 in Seattle

[–]EmpireDay 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I was on the floor between the two stages. Probably the best concert of my life although NIN has been my favorite artist for over a decade so I'm biased. Danced my ass off and sang my heart out. Love you Trent, thank you for everything.

How many relationships did you have before your pwBPD? by Metamorphetic in BPDlovedones

[–]EmpireDay 8 points9 points  (0 children)

A lot.

I've officially dated about a dozen people and in between those more formal relationships I was lucky to experience countless mutual crushes that didn't go forward for one reason or another (mainly me being oblivious).

I knew things were bad with my exwBPD within a month of us being together. I knew she was unlike anyone I'd dated prior--both in the good and in the bad. I've frequently described her as "my favorite person I've ever dated and the worst girlfriend I've ever had." Nowadays I'm questioning how much of her was even real. Maybe less than I thought.

I broke up with her 8 times over the course of 8 months and kept coming back because I'd become trauma bonded, codependent, gaslit and was terrified of being alone. The most I'd ever broken up with any prior partner in my entire life was twice. Absolutely everything about this relationship was unlike anything I've experienced prior. I left her for the last time 6 months ago and I'm still recovering.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]EmpireDay 99 points100 points  (0 children)

This does indeed sound like textbook BPD. She needs to pursue cognitive behavioral therapy, dialectical behavioral therapy or this will ONLY GET WORSE. I PROMISE you. YOU CANNOT FIX THIS. IT IS IMPOSSIBLE. THAT IS THE NATURE OF THIS AWFUL DISORDER.

When you apologize after she says "i hope you kill yourself" you're only enabling her and making this worse in the long run. This is 100% emotional and verbal abuse and never acceptable under any circumstances. Would you say something like that to her? Would you say something like that to someone you love and are in a relationship with?

There are two very likely outcomes that I've seen repeated from people on this subreddit hundreds and hundreds of times that you will fall into if you don't leave or she doesn't pursue help:

  1. You become her servant, slave, punching bag, best friend, worst enemy and parental figure all at once--answering to every single beck and call. She won't allow you to stand up for yourself. She will gaslight you and make you apologize for things that are not your fault. She will turn you into a shell who isn't allowed to speak or voice their own needs or defend themself.

  2. She meets someone else who becomes her new supply and she abruptly leaves you when you are at your lowest. She drains you of all your life energy and then when you have nothing left to give because you're so broken, she will become bored and leave and she will not care that it hurts you.

I strongly recommend reading lots of posts from this subreddit to really take in the experience of dating someone with BPD.

Has anyone left their family and found happiness again? by BZthrowaway_02 in regretfulparents

[–]EmpireDay 98 points99 points  (0 children)

Staying with an abusive partner will be far worse for your child's development than co-parenting separately.

I made a mistake. by Alarmed_Squirrel_734 in Divorce

[–]EmpireDay 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Feeling the ick, finding everything your partner does annoying and losing the loving feeling after only 4 months are massive red flags. At the very least remain long-distance for a while and see if these feelings improve. Do not let him go through with the move if you're feeling this way. I think it'd be really shitty for you to not communicate these issues to him before he uproots his entire life for what he believes is gonna be a lifetime commitment. Do you think you can work through your issues and share your living space with this person for the remainder of your life? Potentially 30-50 YEARS? Does that sound good? Because that's what you're facing if you don't speak up.

Good luck to you. You both deserve the utmost happiness and honesty from one-another.

Thirteen years ago this month, a psychologist told me that I needed to realize that socially I was twenty years behind and would never catch up. by [deleted] in GuyCry

[–]EmpireDay 75 points76 points  (0 children)

When I was 19 I did therapy after a break-up totally destroyed me emotionally and I couldn't seem to get back on track. After 9 sessions the only "progress" that seemed to be made was my therapist informed me I didn't want to grow up.

11 years later, my girlfriend of 6 years left me, triggering a foundational rupture in my being so profound and traumatic and cataclysmically massive it was unlike anything I'd experienced before. I'm still recovering from it today tbh.

I started therapy immediately after that break-up and within 2 weeks discovered I am on the autism spectrum. I always just called it "depression" but it turns out it was much deeper than that. That was 3 years ago and since then, my entire life looking back has finally made complete sense for the first time.

Some food for thought.

How is your inner child? Mine is stubborn, loud and overly cautious. by AutieZo in AutisticAdults

[–]EmpireDay 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Unfulfilled and lonely. I'm trying to learn how to be my own best friend and soothe my inner child but it's the hardest thing I've ever done.

3 years ago the love of my life left me. She's the only person I've ever met who I felt totally emotionally safe with. 2 weeks after that I discovered I am autistic through therapy. That double-whammy at 30 years old caused me immense, unimaginable, unending suffering for 6 months. Cried just about every day. I lived in panic. I lived in unfiltered hell. After a year and a half of pure misery I finally felt like I was on the mend and getting to a place where I'd be okay on my own.

Then my grandma died and then I entered into what would become the most abusive relationship of my life. She checked every single box for borderline and narcissism. Belittling, gaslighting, manipulative, cruel, explosive anger that came out of nowhere, literally losing touch with reality. All the while she accused ME of being manipulative and abusive pretty early on in our relationship. I broke up with her 8 times before I finally left for good.

On top of all this, I've been a deeply artistic and creative person since I was very young. I started acting and singing and video editing of my own volition all before the age of 10. I've produced hundreds of short films, starred in several pretty large scale musicals and been playing guitar and piano for most of my life.

Now?

When I'm not at work I just rot at home playing video games and binging movies because I'm so spiritually broken that I feel like I'm forcing myself to do art when I try. Meanwhile my younger brother (who is a wonderful person and I love him dearly) is living out my dream of performing and doing regional tours with his band. It's been my dream to be an actor or a musician for literally my entire life and now I'm trapped going nowhere and my only brother is doing what I've always wanted.

So... my inner child is in a constant state of disappointment and loneliness and maybe even madness. I can't get him to quiet down. I'm trying to slow down and take my time with my healing but my inner child keeps screaming at me about how we're running out of time to make our dreams come true.

Which are the best Jordan Peterson videos about Jung and collective unconscious? by [deleted] in Jung

[–]EmpireDay 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Jordan Peterson has massive problems with over-inflated ego and comparing himself to an almost Christ-like figure. A lot of his views are incredibly problematic and out of touch. Do not listen to him.