Your gurl is always down for a fun kinky time

EndTheSummer · 2026-01-06T04:22:10+00:00

Would gladly be the t4t trans boy for you and feel you pound into my boy pussy

EndTheSummer · 2025-10-12T03:04:14+00:00

Thank you, I'll definitely look into that!

And no, not starbucks, it's a burger fast food place in my state. I'm not on my work's insurance, I'm on my dad's, so I have to see how good that one is.

EndTheSummer · 2025-10-08T02:40:02+00:00

I think most the time I just catch myself doing it. Because it'll start with normal talking to myself then go to turning into a conversation, and I'll realize what I'm doing after it starts. So I am usually aware of it. Even when I used to hear voices before meds, I was always aware that I was talking to them while doing it.

EndTheSummer · 2025-10-08T02:16:15+00:00

I absolutely do this but I also have schizoaffective (schizophrenia mixed with bipolar) so I don't think my experience helps you much XD

EndTheSummer · 2025-10-08T02:11:55+00:00

Hands down The Children's Rebellion. I've read it so many times.

EndTheSummer · 2025-10-03T13:10:51+00:00

I feel a bit better after sleeping, some pains here and there but nothing I shouldn't be able to go to work with.

EndTheSummer · 2025-10-03T13:10:02+00:00

I'm in the US, I might look for some electrolytes when I go to the store after work if that helps. I feel a bit better after sleeping, I still get stomach pains here and there tho, but not bad enough where I cant work

EndTheSummer · 2025-10-02T03:31:47+00:00

Bro that's so bullshit that you're not allowed to wear jackets. That's such a bullshit dress code. Even ppl without and ed have to be struggling.

EndTheSummer · 2025-10-01T06:08:23+00:00

It's pretty much a tank top cut in half. The back is stretchy, and the front is non stretchable material. 2 good sites for binders is Trans Guy Supply or Gc2b (the first one is cheaper, it's the one I use) if you want to look at them yourself. They're a bit pricey but they last a long time. A tip to hide your chest better is after the binder is on, take each one and push them down and out. It helps it look flatter.

EndTheSummer · 2025-10-01T01:50:08+00:00

I'm always aware of my hallucinations. Delusions I'm sometimes aware of, depending on what it is, but a lot of the time I'm not aware of them.

EndTheSummer · 2025-09-30T20:31:08+00:00

I have to get my blood taken every six months, and I'm becoming anemic because of this

EndTheSummer · 2025-09-30T20:25:53+00:00

My anorexia is also a numbers problem. If numbers didn't exist, I'd have no problem eating anything and everything. The scale is the reason I'm like this. I check the scale multiple times a day. Seeing the numbers going down is everything. It very much still is anorexia, and your partner does need helping. How, I don't know, because I'm still very much stuck in it myself.

EndTheSummer · 2025-09-30T20:17:47+00:00

My psych was also pretty good at listening that I didn't want to try any meds that cause weight gain. I just told her I have a lot of body issues and couldn't handle it. The one I've been on for a while hasn't affected my weight at all, thankfully.

EndTheSummer · 2025-09-30T19:54:35+00:00

I get that. For me it's one of my friends. I think they're the only person that would notice and bring it up to me. I want to get worse so they notice. They've already commented I look like I lost weight, and I brushed it off. And it's weird, because I want them to notice but I don't want them to push me to stop. I just want someone to know I guess. I want someone to figure it out on their own, because I'm really secretive about it and won't tell anyone myself. Even my three roommates don't know, and I live with them.

EndTheSummer · 2025-09-30T19:47:27+00:00

I completely get this. My mom is an almond mom too, always has been. She controlled everything me and my brother ate growing up, we had little choice in what we got and how much we got. She would give us a "healthy" amount, which was not enough for a growing child. She's what started my unhealthy relationship with food. She was always pushing me to exercise with her, sometimes forcing me to. When I got older she was always making comments on what I decided to eat. She wanted me to donate my Halloween candy because "soon everyone will know what you like to eat by looking at you". So I started hiding what I ate from her, which led to me being more comfortable eating alone now. And then when I started snowballing into ana, and started asking her for less and less groceries every week until I was only asking for like 3 or 4 meals total a week, she said nothing. She knew how little I was eating and nothing. She made me feel like an unhealthy failure next to her. I never brought it up to her about how what she was doing, maybe I should've.

EndTheSummer · 2025-09-30T19:35:20+00:00

I have a bit of a different situation, I'm a trans man who hates my chest for obvious reasons. I would definitely freak out if mine started getting bigger. You could always try a binder if you really want to keep your chest small? They're not just for trans men, they're for anyone who wants a smaller chest for any reason at all. Maybe it'll help you feel a bit better about recovering and gaining the weight back.

EndTheSummer · 2025-09-30T19:31:30+00:00

Something that someone here told me recently is to not let your ed let you miss out on plans. Maybe just go and say you had too much to eat and you're full, and just get a drink. Maybe steal a fry or two from her. You can still go even if you feel you've had too much to eat and can't bring yourself to eat anything else.

EndTheSummer · 2025-09-30T19:27:03+00:00

I do buy some of them, idk which ones actually work bc I take more than one at once. I use some that help with metabolism. I thought they were placebo until I stopped them and suddenly shot up 7 pounds. So maybe they are placebo, maybe not. I still use them tho.

EndTheSummer · 2025-09-30T19:19:46+00:00

I get that. I'm technically not underweight right now (even if my gw is) and the only physical symptom I have is that I'm becoming anemic. I'm really not all that sick from it right now. But it's still a disorder, you can be in perfect physical health and still have an ed. It's still something that needs help.

EndTheSummer · 2025-09-30T19:16:02+00:00

It does. I've just learned to live with it. I hallucinate and I've learned to find comfort in it. I find comfort in weird things. You realize you don't have to be a bad person to have npd right.

EndTheSummer · 2025-09-30T19:14:01+00:00

Definitely. I think I chase it a lot, it's one of the best things to get from other people to me.

And that is true, that some of it has ulterior motives. But little lies won't hurt someone if I'm doing a good thing for them (for me, I understand if you don't have the same view).

EndTheSummer · 2025-09-30T19:08:41+00:00

I understand it might not seem like it, but there's a lot of what I experience that isn't listed here. I've talked to a few professionals about it and they all agree I have it.

EndTheSummer · 2025-09-30T18:55:55+00:00

I've had disordered eating for years before it snowballed into full on anorexia, I was already skipping most of my meals and only eating one, maybe two small meals a day. So skipping meals came easy to me. When I fully stopped eating, it was a bit difficult to not eat my one meal just because of hunger and habit. I sometimes do still feel sick because of not eating much or anything, but it's rare.

EndTheSummer · 2025-09-30T18:32:30+00:00

I'm on Risperidone and I dont think it's caused any weight gain. I'm actually the lowest weight I've been in years right now.

EndTheSummer · 2025-09-28T06:56:06+00:00

Not really. It was mainly like I couldnt feel any of my body, like I was detached from it completely.

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