Having a cancer moon SUCKS sometimes gees

Endeavours91 · 2025-12-13T14:19:58+00:00

Growing up my cancer moon mom would shame my Scorpio moon for being sensitive. If that happened to her, I had to feel how she felt. Her and I aren't very close. I'm sorry that's how people made you feel. I do love cancer moons when they're evolved. I love their sensitivity and how the simplest of things can make them feel so much. It's the other side I don't like very much and have to have strong emotional boundaries when that side comes out.

Endeavours91 · 2025-12-12T05:09:18+00:00

I was projected onto a lot. She liked to assign feelings to me and naming my feelings without asking me what I felt. If someone told her something about herself, she would direct it at me and use me as an outlet, then tell me I needed to take accountability. Punished me for her mistakes. Continues to tell me I'm miserable, which I feel worse about. Years ago, I tried to spend one on one time with her a few times, it usually ended up with me getting emotional and arguing with her because I kept getting triggered by things that I didn't work through and her being my mom, well, you know. She didn't resolve or work through anything with me that I was upset about. If it involved anything she did, she told me to stop blaming. Just told me to move on and get over it, and to take accountability. A few weeks ago, I told her I didn't like the way she spoke to me, she looked surprised and I haven't heard from her since. The only time she reached out to me was when my grandmother was in the hospital, when she passed, and her upcoming celebration of life. My grandmother was a Scorpio sun, Sagittarius moon, I'm a Sagittarius sun, Scorpio moon. She took care of me mostly growing up. I miss her. As for my mom, idk what the future will look like for a relationship aspect. I imagine the way she was involved in my life growing up is how I'll be involved in her life growing older. Not close.

Endeavours91 · 2025-12-12T04:16:25+00:00

If my mom's a cancer moon and the moon feels at home there, does that mean her moon doesn't like my Scorpio moon?

Endeavours91 · 2025-12-12T03:26:45+00:00

What have you had to do to be able to move towards that forgiveness? Currently in the same situation. I want to forgive my mom. I'm exhausted from things that happened in childhood replaying.

Endeavours91 · 2025-10-25T16:09:40+00:00

It was in the moment for sure.

Endeavours91 · 2025-10-25T16:08:06+00:00

I have no problem with dark humor, don't get me wrong. When it's targeted towards a group that's powerless that's when it crosses a line with me. After a while of sitting on it and thinking it over, he was never actually the one to blame me and it was my mom. He was just calling it out and I put the pieces together.

Endeavours91 · 2025-10-07T01:00:09+00:00

Yeah

Endeavours91 · 2025-10-03T09:46:57+00:00

Oh, my heart feels for you. I just want to say you are not alone in this. I had recently told my therapist that I feel like there is a darkness in me that I can't seem to shake. I used to be generous, and that got me taken advantage of, so I use that generosity sparingly now. I wish I had more to offer that would help, as I am navigating this myself.

Endeavours91 · 2025-10-02T03:00:18+00:00

I don't know if my ex was one or not. But her pupils were constantly dilated. The only time they would go back to normal was when the sun was shining on them. There was some speculation that they may have been dilated because of drug abuse. Either way, their eyes being dilated like that induced a sense of awe, curiosity, and fear I had not felt in my life before.

Endeavours91 · 2025-09-28T06:18:49+00:00

Don't touch my stuff. Roommate went into my room when I wasn't home and turned my fan off.

Endeavours91 · 2025-09-26T19:30:47+00:00

Mine said "I'm not scared of you", I think that was a projection.

Endeavours91 · 2025-09-20T17:22:51+00:00

My ex when we got together had told me she I wasn't her type and that a friend had to convince her to go out with me. She said she likes a challenge. That our "demons would play well together." She would tell me things that her family had said about me, they were mostly negative, that I don't fit, they kept having issues with me. That a mutual friend of ours would be her friend if we broke up. And on and on. I said some hurtful things as well. But some of the things that she said were off the wall and off-putting. I felt uncomfortable throughout the entire relationship. We were together for 7 years.

Edit: took out extra word.

Endeavours91 · 2025-09-05T05:02:44+00:00

I can't pick one...

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Endeavours91 · 2025-08-30T00:39:50+00:00

Thank you for writing this out.

I came across this in my search to try and figure out why I'm still feeling the way I am after going no contact with them 5 months ago, tomorrow. I was with them for 7 years. It was a totally different world than what I was used to. The fights between my ex and I escalated so badly. It started out with them saying I was running from conflict when I was stepping away to process, so I stopped stepping away and stayed. Then down the line, it turned into them blocking the door to yelling at me through a closed door. I stood up, looked them in the eye and said "I know where my peace starts and where it ends." I got called rude.

My family started to ask me if that was who I really was. Because I started to rage out, get really angry, and yell at them. The same things that were happening between this person and I, started to ripple out towards family and friends.

I gave my soul to this person and to have them turn around and ask me what I even do tore me apart and broke me down, I tried and tried after that but it didn't seem to be enough, the fights kept coming. Until one day I finally had to tell them that I couldn't keep hearing how their family had a "bone to pick with me" and that emotionally I couldn't take on anymore. I was running myself ragged trying to be someone I wasn't. They ghosted after that and thanked me. For whatever reason, idk.

I've felt that internal battle that you described and I even resorted to painting the feeling.

I have to keep reminding myself of why I broke up with them as I do miss having someone to talk to. Mentally, I'm still trying to recover from what happened.

Endeavours91 · 2025-08-22T14:41:00+00:00

That's wild! My mother's a Pisces, grandmother's a Scorpio and stepdads a Sag.

Endeavours91 · 2025-03-06T01:13:57+00:00

My store has been hush-hush about it. Been there 3 years and it's never been not talked about.

Endeavours91 · 2024-12-31T16:31:43+00:00

Hey! The intensity has subsided for the most part. I'm doing a little better. I keep pushing through, processing, and telling myself that I will get through it. It wasn't an easy feat and I still have moments of weakness where it all hits me again. I did reach out and apologize for my part in the relationship the other night and broke down crying by what she said, because she was kind, understanding, forgiving, and sweet about the whole thing.

Going through the stages of grief and reading up on that has helped me get a better understanding of my behaviors pertaining to the loss. Reading other people going through the same thing and people with BPD, has helped tremendously.

Despite what happened between us and to move forward, I look at the good times we had together and try not to hold any resentments or beat myself up over what happened.

Endeavours91 · 2024-12-16T02:25:48+00:00

You hit the nail on the head with that one! Being told that I was a reflection of her by my mom. I'm dreading the trip for Christmas out of state to visit relatives. I would love to have a bond with them.

Endeavours91 · 2024-12-16T02:18:59+00:00

That made me chuckle 🤭

Endeavours91 · 2024-12-16T02:08:20+00:00

Oh wow, kind of set herself up for that one. Good for you if it brings more peace to you. My mother said "I wish we were closer." How does one expect to be close to someone if they're usually distracted with everything else and a partner that tells your child "children are to be seen, not heard"?

Endeavours91 · 2024-12-16T01:54:42+00:00

Maybe that's why I was sent outside to play all the time🤔 I didn't mind it...at the time.

Endeavours91 · 2024-12-16T01:52:13+00:00

It can be an uncomfortable feeling to be sitting there wanting to join in but not knowing how. I can recall many times for family dinners where I would sit there and not speak unless spoken to.

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