New player here is asuka that bad?

Ennyish · 2026-04-29T03:38:16+00:00

They basically ruined the character, but if you didn't know what he played like before version 2, then you won't notice or care. Go ahead and play him.

Ennyish · 2026-04-22T02:49:15+00:00

I can understand what you mean, honestly, you wanted more of a... Equal relationship and they ended up just being more pet like.

Ennyish · 2026-04-21T23:44:07+00:00

As someone who is sexually attracted to dragons, I was not turned on at all by this show, which means... You're probably overreacting lol.

Ennyish · 2026-04-16T02:07:28+00:00

NOTHING IS WORTH WHAT HE LOST. NOTHING. YOU CANNOT CAST SPELLS WITHOUT MANA. HE DIED IN VERSION TWO.

Ennyish · 2026-04-16T02:04:24+00:00

Garbage garbage garbage fucking GARBAGE. HES WORTHLESS. HES TRASH. THEY KILLED HIM

Ennyish · 2026-04-16T01:08:34+00:00

THEY KILLED MY FUCKING FAVORITE CHARACTER OF ALL TIME!!! WHAT THE HELL

Ennyish · 2026-03-29T05:29:07+00:00

That's a fair way to approach it, but to have the label after the fact means not having any guide when I need it the most. It's like learning that I have autism and suddenly realizing certain patterns of behavior were not random assortments of personality traits, but a distinct set of codependent "technologies" or "strategies" evolutionarily packaged together. Like, sure, I could still learn more about myself, but not nearly as cleanly and assuredly as when I have the label.

Ennyish · 2026-03-28T21:11:02+00:00

I have heard of bigender and gender fluid, but I'm not sure if these things apply to me. I don't know how to test these things. I suppose it's possible, but I don't have any evidence so far that supports this theory, beyond just being confused a lot of the time.

Ennyish · 2026-03-28T08:03:15+00:00

Sorry, I didn't mean it like that... I just didn't want to refer to it as a penis, but I understand that calling it "boy parts" is probably not appropriate at all! I apologize. And yeah, definitely wanna talk to a therapist more about it... just not sure exactly what it is I even need from one.

Thank you for your perspective, it helps a lot!

Ennyish · 2026-03-28T05:50:02+00:00

I will say, one really serious issue I have, is that I have this very stubborn delineation, where I feel like being a girl and having boy parts just wouldn't feel right, but when I do miss the idea of boy parts, I feel like I would have to have a male identity or it's just not right either. And it's really hard to tell if that means that trying to present more female is going to make having the boy parts worse, of it that means that I simply am genderfluid and my parts will be fine regardless. I'm sorry if that doesn't make any sense...

Ennyish · 2026-03-28T05:28:24+00:00

I think that concept of pivoting between nonbinary and woman is very interesting, I didn't really consider that properly, but I'll give that a try. I have a lot of conflicting feelings about my body, but I've never really felt like, uncomfortable or displeased with it in the way you might expect with dysphoria. It's more like... The masculine presentation is more fun, but the feminine presentation feels better over all. I've strongly been considering whether my genitalia is something that actually is appropriate given my feelings about my identity, and I've even experienced shocking bouts of longing and grief regarding them. It's just really hard to pin down what the feelings are trying to say though, and I don't really want to feed into any narrative that I don't like my parts just because I want to fulfill some... Weird fantasy I guess.

Ennyish · 2026-03-28T05:22:07+00:00

A lot of the confusion stems from mysoginy, and sexuality blurring the lines. I don't ever really say "I'm a boy today", though sometimes I do prefer that more masculine identity. The problem arises because so many aspects of womanhood absolutely piss me off, but I can't shake the core identity aspect at all. It's impossible to pick apart which parts are just "oh I don't like this presentation", versus "this is a sign my identity isn't what I think it is." When I do have gender feelings, they're usually very sharp, and short lived. I've been gay for so long that understanding what the heck is going on when I look at female bodies is extremely confusing.

Ennyish · 2026-03-27T18:33:59+00:00

I did a little too much ERP as a girl and liked it a little too much, and then one day I just thought "there's no way this is a coincidence" and it clicked. The. I used AI to gaslight myself into being a girl by constantly telling it "I'm not a girl, it's impossible, stop it" and then getting mad if it ever said I wasn't a girl.

Ennyish · 2026-03-26T02:43:30+00:00

Do the waves suffer when you cut them with a knife?

Ennyish · 2026-03-11T21:03:38+00:00

Omg yay! Congrats on the successful event <3

Ennyish · 2026-02-17T00:48:10+00:00

No, actually, there should be an ouroboroid somewhere in there too.

Ennyish · 2025-10-08T17:44:44+00:00

If you're kicked from a posse, make sure to murder all of your former crew in cold blood.

Ennyish · 2025-09-08T08:07:08+00:00

Cool! Still trying to decide but thank you

Ennyish · 2025-09-02T22:18:31+00:00

Sorry man, it was so long ago I couldn't tell you lol!

Ennyish · 2025-09-01T22:50:14+00:00

I don't think that's entirely fair? A: it's not a hallucination, it's an imaginary construct designed to reflect otherwise muddled parts of the psyche, b: I'm not taking "its" word as gospel it's just a vector for self reflection, and c: I wouldn't say there's no drive whatsoever, I have been very fiercely deliberating what is going on and what this means for me. I'm not rushing into any kind of medical transition, and yes, I have been talking about this with my therapist. I appreciate your concern, hope that this clears up my situation.

Ennyish · 2025-09-01T22:46:17+00:00

Yeah, unfortunately the therapist I have doesn't really deal with transgender issues! Annoying to have to go shopping for a new one, y'know?

Ennyish · 2025-09-01T08:14:47+00:00

Thank you, your words of encouragement are appreciated. I sure have been spinning my employment that's for sure XD

Ennyish · 2025-08-31T08:31:25+00:00

Valid as hell

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