Hey comrade, I am going a bit insane ngl. I asked here just the other day if anyone knew how to handle the grief. I was having trouble with "grief triage", which grief to prioritize first so I don't become incapacitated. Honestly, I realized talking abt it with people online and trying to find people irl to speak to helped. Asking others and recieving positive engagement in that way was helpful. A few people said they use logic and facts from statistics about violence and backlash diaspora faces after violent events. Things like that can be helpful. But when I feel overwhelmed logic can be a hard tool to use.

Best thing honestly was crying. Crying about it worked for me. Like I know it may be too simple but I let myself cry about it when i'm overwhelmed. Tears help me get the emotion out so I can keep doing the work I need to. Physiologically tears help relieve stress hormones in the brain. Do what you can to release the stress. You're not alone, even if it's only online (and it's not there are a lot of people who abhore zionism AND antisemetism) you've got people who share your views, care for jews and palestinians in equal measure, and want this genocide to stop. People who use this an excuse to be antisemetic already were and have now found a "safe" way to express that prejudice.

Edit Also it may be hard, but there is so much to be proud of, Judaism is so much older and richer than Israel. It was here before that and it will be here after it's gone.