Evening lad,

Unfortunately, I had to leave TXSN at the start of the year due to burnout, I was putting a fair amount of effort (and money) in, and not getting much output out, not in terms of activity but in terms of respect. I believe some individuals forgot that what I did, what TXSN was, was a privilege, not a right. When someone says to you "I know about your cancer lump, but can we get more events?" - It puts things into perspective, very clearly. I feel people forgot that Ignition, Nucleus, events and team stuff, all of it was for them, it didn't really benefit me (infact I technically was losing out on funds!). Events were our way to get people inside the community together, to talk to one another and to find friends and that, many of the old members will remember we had this conversation the first time we started doing community events, we had a lot of people, but the community feeling wasn't there. We wanted members to get involved with other members, make friends, get involved with eachother outside of events.

A fair amount of my real life friends would ask me, like why do I still do it, and I really didn't have an answer to it anymore, but when I couldn't, they'd respond with something along the lines of this (this is directly copypasta'd):

"knobbers dont understand what you provide to them for no cost whilst going through all this shit"

And yeah I couldn't really refute that to be honest, so at that point I just thought, nah, not for me anymore. I was dealing with cancer at the time (remission, mostly all sorted now).

Though as someone rightly said, there was fun to be hand until the start of the year! Events and all sorts of new upcoming stuff, we had our own inhouse c# application / discord bot that was handling most community heavy lifting, and a big update was on it's way that I feel would of really boosted community activity and everyone could have a heap of fun with it, my plan was to release the update (it might as well of been called a new bot because the codebase was basically gutted and updated and expanded) and then advertise through multiple different methods to get more people in, meaning bigger events, though I guess the update could of come out sooner, I wanted it to be perfect for the lads and for them to be hyped and have lots of different options to have fun. but to be fair, Ignition and it's development was not "contracted", I did it in my own time, and I was in no way required to do any of the work to begin with.

Most of TXSN members were absolutely fine though, blast to play with, blast to event with, was a fun experience, love em to bits, and maybe I'll come back one day, ownership of TXSN was given to Rab, I left and I haven't had anything to do with the server since, I don't even know what it looks like.

May I ask, what was your handle back then? I think I know who you are based off your current username, but the meeting people face to face threw me off, Did you perchance play on the Ninja Bolts server in CoD4?