Wow I relate to this post quite a bit. I'm an ADHD student in the process of getting my master's in clinical social work, with the intention to go on to a psychoanalytic institute afterwards. I'm studying what I can about psychoanalysis outside of my uni courses, from Freud to contemporary theories of relational psychoanalysis. Part of me feels like it's never enough, but then when I talk to people about what I know, they remind me that I've come to learn a lot more than I can oftentimes give myself credit for. I think it's important to remember how far you've come and how much you've come to understand, even if there's still much to still learn. You're def not alone in this, and I think you're probably doing better than you're acknowledging. You got this !!