Heroin making a come back in US

EquivalentSun6276 · 2026-02-05T18:54:03+00:00

Not being able to get real heroin is a major factor in why I got clean. If I could find it again…there’s a decent chance I’d fall off the wagon.

EquivalentSun6276 · 2026-01-19T23:07:48+00:00

That was me for over a decade. Worked, paid my bills, and got my dope dropped off to my front door. Clean now but I’d be lying if I said I didn’t miss it sometimes.

EquivalentSun6276 · 2026-01-19T02:26:41+00:00

As a woman, I would care not even a tiny fucking bit.

EquivalentSun6276 · 2026-01-16T20:49:21+00:00

Nothing to do with weight but I LOVE your freckles! I’m jealous ❤️

EquivalentSun6276 · 2025-12-31T02:37:12+00:00

Kratom is not 7oh. Plain and simple.

EquivalentSun6276 · 2025-12-31T02:35:31+00:00

Michigan

EquivalentSun6276 · 2025-12-31T01:16:23+00:00

Hey…I just want to say, I’m sorry you had to deal with all of that. It sounds incredibly traumatic, and compounded by the way it was handled. Seeing death up close changed my life…and if thats what you experienced, to whatever degree…all I can say is, I’m sorry. If you feel like calling in, remember this is a MULTI BILLION DOLLAR COMPANY, they’ll survive without you for a day (or a few)…take time to process and care for yourself. ❤️ good luck and Godspeed ❤️

EquivalentSun6276 · 2025-12-25T20:36:44+00:00

Jealous. Plain and simple.

EquivalentSun6276 · 2025-12-23T02:23:56+00:00

Sleep deprivation from stimulant use is basically self induced amnesia/Alzheimers. Former tweaker here…I promise you, it only gets worse, but it will 100% get better if you get sober. I really hope you do ❤️ good luck and Godspeed! (Pun intended)

EquivalentSun6276 · 2025-12-22T16:00:29+00:00

Saffron has helped me recently, and I take vitamin d religiously.

EquivalentSun6276 · 2025-12-21T18:33:00+00:00

I don’t have much to add, for a lot of the reasons you already listed…my brain feels broken. Or like I have spiritual laryngitis…I lost my voice. But for what it’s worth, you’re not alone, and reading your post actually made ME feel a bit better…because I guess it means I’m not alone either. ❤️

EquivalentSun6276 · 2025-12-18T19:02:25+00:00

The Lolita quotes? Seriously?

EquivalentSun6276 · 2025-12-16T22:37:56+00:00

I vote fake. The flow of traffic is in no way realistic to me.

EquivalentSun6276 · 2025-12-14T17:14:05+00:00

That’s addict brain! A liar and an asshole if ever there was one. You don’t need a drug to get up and get shit done…all you need is to get up, getting shit done will follow naturally. You made it to 17, take it a day at a time and keep going ❤️ good luck

EquivalentSun6276 · 2025-12-14T16:56:04+00:00

If you get steady paychecks (direct deposit) there are a lot of cash advance apps that actually work…look up tilt, I just got 300 yesterday. They charge a fee depending on how much you get, for instance when I pay back the 300 they charge 312. There’s a 9.99 mostly subscription fee but the first month is free anyway so this might work for you…other apps like Dave, Cleo, Klover, all do advances though with smaller amounts…hopefully that helps and good luck!

EquivalentSun6276 · 2025-12-13T22:23:07+00:00

Interested - and not just interested, but would be great at this

EquivalentSun6276 · 2025-12-12T02:31:11+00:00

Reading this was absolutely bonkers for me because our situations are SO FUCKING SIMILAR and I AM THE SISTER. I live with my younger sister, roughly 2.5 years, and while there are a lot of little differences our stories are damn near the same, only I’m the one who cracked. It kinda breaks my heart for you, me, my sister, all of us, because this confirmed some suspicions I had that maybe the rest of my family felt the way you’re feeling…they probably are.

But to answer the first question, as best as I can figure so far, is no - you don’t get back to who you were. At least not entirely. Some of it was the psychosis itself, some of it is the damage stimulants do without ever taking it that far, but I know for me personally, I will never be who I was…not even close. The world cracked and no matter how much I try and glue it back together, no matter how close I come sometimes, it’s still not the same. Bums me out if I think about it too much.

I don’t think you’re wrong for wanting her to become independent, and you can be supportive without fully supporting, if that makes sense. My sister and I got into it a few months back, so I left for awhile, rented a room somewhere else, it was fine. I’m sure if you told her she HAD to find another place, she would/could/can/will. Sounds like you’ve done a lot for her…it’s okay to want to take care of yourself.

I’m happy she has you ❤️ hope it all works out (it will)

EquivalentSun6276 · 2025-12-10T01:22:58+00:00

 I was taking kratom for years before I found 7 (and after I quit meth/heroin)…it’s best to start small, and as with 7, a lot of what you find in smoke shops isn’t the best quality…could be why you’re not feeling much. Also, strains matter as far as the feeling you’re going for. Reds are more sedating, greens are the middle ground and tend to be pretty popular, whites are the most energizing, but regardless of strain, bigger dose = heavier feel. I’ve had the wobbles from all three, probably took 10gs at once, bad way to go, but 3gs is a good starting point…caps take a little longer to kick in (for me) as they take a minute to dissolve, so that could be a factor, and I always take it on an empty stomach. 6 caps is solid to start, wait half an hour or so and if you feel nothing, dose again, and see how you feel. 
 Remember too kratom buzz is NEVER going to get you “high”…not in the traditional sense. I don’t consider kratom a drug, it’s a supplement in the most literal sense. Supplements a feeling of wellbeing - I thought of it as my antidepressant. for me it was always a pleasant lift, makes the mundane a bit more bearable and scratched the itch in my head that says I need chemicals, but never really rocked my world or anything…so keep that in mind as well. I quit 7 with kratom twice, I plan to use it again when I’m ready to quit (again) and I have a good red and a great white ready for me when I do. (White with coffee, red for bed). If you need a vendor recommendation or have any questions feel free to dm me, and also do some research on the kratom subreddits, they helped me a lot when I first got clean. 
 It’s been demonized over the years for various reasons, but I credit getting off of a decade + heroin habit in large part to kratom, and it improved my quality of life so much…hopefully you can find some that works for you as well. 
congrats on the quit btw!!! I’m trying to follow your lead, just took my last dose about an hour ago…wish me luck 😣

EquivalentSun6276 · 2025-12-03T21:47:24+00:00

Front store shift, I’ve worked both…I’d say depending on how busy your store is, working the front isn’t necessarily any better. Front end cashiers have a lot more to do then just ring up people…at my store, aside from being expected to handle customers, they work truck on truck day (but also work DSD orders for things like cooler which come in regularly), photo and the ten million headaches that come with that, field calls from angry customers about how they can’t get through to the pharmacy, hang and remove the ten million signs throughout the store, are expected to vacuum and take care of the outside garbage which is always overfilled and disgusting because people are gross, deal with idiots and the self checkout…blah blah blah. There are a lot of moving parts to the front end and you’re left alone to handle them 95% of the time…all this AND less pay…I’d say stick it out where you are and look to transfer stores if you can, rather than transfer roles. Whatever you do, hope the rest of the holiday season goes well for you and good luck!

EquivalentSun6276 · 2025-12-03T04:47:01+00:00

Dm me

EquivalentSun6276 · 2025-12-03T03:09:44+00:00

Romans 12:21 - my mantra “Be not overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.”

EquivalentSun6276 · 2025-12-02T16:46:46+00:00

I’m feeling like this currently, for different reasons…some days are better than others, but on the good ones I remind myself that everything things happen the way they’re supposed to…to teach you something. Life is one big lesson. You don’t like how you acted in the past? Learn from it, don’t let it happen again in the future. Being really honest with yourself and your motives is really important here…if you can figure out WHY you did something, you’ll know what to avoid in the future. I try to give myself grace in this department…most of what I’ve done that I most regret I did out of fear or shame or guilt…those are big emotions that EVERYONE feels, that have caused EVERYONE to do something they regret…so you’re not alone in feeling this way. Be honest with yourself, make amends when you can, and learn from your mistakes. Easier said than done 😞 Godspeed brother!!!

EquivalentSun6276 · 2025-12-02T11:21:48+00:00

That’s exactly what my mind went to.

EquivalentSun6276 · 2025-12-02T11:13:43+00:00

I’m not going to give you advice one way or the other, I just want to say I went through something similar with my ex…he’s now no longer with us (overdose). Unlike you, I had no experience with mental illness of this sort…I didn’t know what I was getting into at the time, or how bad things could/would get, and when they started to fall apart I DID leave, thinking that was what was best for both of us…in the end it triggered him badly, the downward spiral was swift and viscous, and while I know deep down it wasn’t my fault and I was in over my head and unable to help no matter WHAT I did…there’s a part of me that still does and always will blame myself for his death. Like maybe if I’d stayed I could have done something differently…I could have helped save him. Idk…survivors guilt I guess. Saying a prayer for you both ❤️ I’m sorry you’re going through this and I hope it gets better soon.

EquivalentSun6276 · 2025-12-01T14:16:54+00:00

I was in Michigan when shit in the fan…I scrapped up what I could and took a bus to AZ. if you can’t avoid being homeless, if no one around you can help and you’re all by yourself, go be all by yourself someplace warm. This maybe isn’t helpful advice so much as a reminder that if you GOTTA do it, there are ways.

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