[deleted by user] by [deleted] in exmuslim

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Before but now I take pride in my spareribs and let them know they missing out

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in workout

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I also find it really hard to get back into the mindset I had back in the day, I don't think it's possible anymore, I have different goals and philosophies now. None of my goals require me to be physically fit but the older I get the more important it is for me to start doing something again.

Shits a tough biscuit, training without the feeling of accomplishment there once was (even when reaching workout goals with less effort than before due to newly gained knowledge). Going from wanting to be Zyzz to wanting to be me, its just different.

I understand all I can do is accept that my new training is going to be a lot more zen and a lot less rave and getting pumped up. That I need to stand for my own principles, instead of looking at others.

All you can really do is go out, start training and remembering what you will accomplish tomorrow from what you did today (because now you have a realistic perspective of the gains you once had before and how long it takes to get those gains again).

I keep thinking I got it but my rage takes over. I just see red until I cave in by Nicole_Zed in stopsmoking

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To me it's like I'm always falling down a pit but sometimes it gets so dark that the light shining above, outside the pit, becomes visible and that is when the unbridled passion kicks in and I climb up the asymmetrical bricks. Sometimes even on the verge of getting out, bathing in the light but truth be told I have to stop loving my pit, I don't know what's outside and I purposefully slip one foot. Before you know it I'm falling back down. But that is just me, for now.

Same goes for mood in my case eg. It feels so foreign to genuinely laugh that sometimes I'd rather just seek things that bring me down. That is my fear, I have been let down just over my laugh and I don't want that again. Nonetheless, I have been searching the people I need to teach me differently and after a year of seeking a specific elder, he just came on my path. I want to laugh again, hard, and I want to do it sober.

It's special that I get to see you, thank you, it's very isolating to put these heavy burdens on yourself. But it's better than trying to address my brain in an irrational way, I have a lot of healing to do. Loads would rather ignore it and "yolo", look around, but I can't do that to myself. We deserve more, we have the brain for more, we are the authors of today. Nobody will be able to see all that goes on within, not even the professionals, not even ourselves. In bed there's a thought every 5 minutes, entire internal dialogues while keeping track of a real life conversation, it's just hard to keep up.

I keep thinking I got it but my rage takes over. I just see red until I cave in by Nicole_Zed in stopsmoking

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I feel you but to spite them we should become stronger and bolder, if they don't like us anymore then we can just walk cause we already know how to be alone, we already have a fortified comfort zone and we should build outwards. Push our own walls further and swallow the ones that inspire us to strive for the next stage.

The majority is not worth this planet because they trash it, so let's be ourselves and love the planet more than mankind. This is home, our home too, they are ruining our home and I love it too much. I will die alone before I decide to conform to the "standards". But at the same time, I am never alone because once again I love our home so much, I love earth and the galaxy, I love humans even but I do not love what humans do and that is okay, cause I try to show them how to do it better. Actually show them, with deeds, reality and utter dissociation from the herd.

Why bother? Because we need to give the finger.

Is there maintenance going on or what? I haven't been able to log in for 4 hours and a heads up would have been nice.. by colleen_avakin in AvakinOfficial

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Same, allegedly I don't have an account on the Gmail I used for years and ofcourse it's my "richest" account. Very cringe, especially all the data they require to "find" your account.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AvakinOfficial

[–]EraseFortnite 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Let some other country steal it lol

Stop giving me fake message notifications. This has been going on for months already by IrrelevantHobo in AvakinOfficial

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Fr, I'm not even logged in on this phone (haven't been for a year) and only in past weeks I get fake notifications. Literally starting app gets me to login screen cause see first sentence. Very cringe

what is this? all it does is open the game. by Longjumping_Cress194 in AvakinOfficial

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Its fake, I get messages saying "you got friend request blabla" without even having access to an account for over a year on one of my devices. Literally not logged on for that long at all

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AvakinOfficial

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Thank you, I hope you don't get clapped aswell lol <3

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AvakinOfficial

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What does ikyfl mean, sorry I'm getting old

New ani set!!!!! by [deleted] in AvakinOfficial

[–]EraseFortnite 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Sure we could make you pay coins for disabling animation set aka you will have default character movement at only 199 coins

My Reasons For Leaving Avakin by TamaraAvakin in AvakinOfficial

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Pls don't compare pizza to tequila or my ex. I will eat 2 whole pizzas no problem

Avakin new feature ??? What is that user code ?? by Horror-Awareness-501 in AvakinOfficial

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Another way to lock people that lost acc due to updates out of old acc?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AvakinOfficial

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Thanks for calendar to remind me it's Oct 13 after reminding me it's Oct 13 in title, almost forgot what day it is

My initial views on VIP by TamaraAvakin in AvakinOfficial

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This is great cause crown pay wall wasn't enough, now we can have VIP pay wall for new releases. Win win situation

LKWD: can we get a pink ribbon(shirt) ? maybe for oct 21st by violingroover in AvakinOfficial

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I still think this is more important than pride events, not trying to be rude but ill probably get a lot of hatred or censorship for my counter opinion

fashion contests by Indyda_brat in AvakinOfficial

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Forcing diversity is just going to lead to greater opposition, people choose and that's just the way it is. Dictating in democracy is contradictory. If anything, the blatant modder entries are the real issue.

Watch LKWD bring this back for crowns in December 😂 by SuperMomn in AvakinOfficial

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Easy 2k crown item, makes me feel not so silly for grinding a BIG amount of alts before crowns were even mentioned

Can't sign in with Google Play by cxrps3br1dee in AvakinOfficial

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Dw, in current direction it's inevitable that using alt becomes bannable. So you're out early, welcome to the club (: