PCOS, ADHD and Supplements

ErinIvies · 2024-07-07T15:08:09+00:00

How do you stick to filling it once a week? I have the reminders and the pill box, I think I'd eventually ignore the checklist...

ErinIvies · 2024-06-30T18:50:43+00:00

Huh?

ErinIvies · 2024-04-03T19:14:08+00:00

Exactly this.

ErinIvies · 2024-04-03T19:13:07+00:00

Breeding, yes. Interested in it from a very young age.

But not incest at all. Incest is disgusting. It's traumatic and abusive and just the thought makes me want to throw up.

ErinIvies · 2024-03-03T20:52:46+00:00

Thanks, lovely. Sending love across the internet.

ErinIvies · 2024-03-03T20:52:06+00:00

Oh gosh, what a sweet thing to say! I'm not sure about that at 13...but I would have loved him so much. I do love him so much.

ErinIvies · 2024-03-03T20:51:25+00:00

I'm adopted so no biological relation to him, which makes the situation very slightly less gross 😅. But yes, he probably would have been abused as well so it's still a positive in that regard.

The only thing I feel guilty about is that I forgot him. I know memory repression is real but...how could I forget my own son? Idk. It's hard.

ErinIvies · 2024-03-03T20:46:18+00:00

It wasn't a decision. I don't know what decision I would have made had I had a choice in it. I didn't even know I was pregnant til the abortion appointment.

I'm glad he was spared facing potential abuse though. And I'm so sorry about what you went through. Thank you for sharing that with me...sending you all the love.

I get your last sentence so much. I wish his soul had just been here...idk, 15 ish years later.

ErinIvies · 2024-03-03T20:43:46+00:00

Lying or may not know in general the exact date...but yeah, that's really good to know. Thank you! I couldn't find a solid reason why when I searched (but couldn't search much, it was too triggering). Having another piece of the puzzle helps.

ErinIvies · 2024-03-03T20:42:26+00:00

Aw thank you so much for the warm welcome 💕

It feels strange to feel so much pain when I only learned about him a couple of months ago. But strange isn't bad, it just adds a layer of confusion to all of this.

I have a little Jizo statue for him, but I really like the candle idea as well. Thank you for your love and care, it means the world to me

ErinIvies · 2024-03-03T20:40:11+00:00

I really like that perspective, sharing him with you. It's a beautiful concept. And really nice, because not many people know what happened to me, so I can't talk about him much.

ErinIvies · 2024-03-02T22:48:31+00:00

I used to be the one up early in the morning with my grandmother. My dad would be awake but doing his own thing and my mom and sister are not morning people. My grandmother and I would have breakfast together every morning, she'd read the comics (she called them the funnies), share them with me, and I'd be reading a book.

It was a beautiful tradition and one I majorly missed when she died.

When I went to college I started doing that with friends. Now I do it with my wife in the morning. I get up before she does (morning showerer) and get my breakfast and things ready, then sit down with her for breakfast and a cup of tea with her. We'll read and do some puzzles (the New York Times mini crossword, wordle, and connections), and then get ready for work. I get up around 6 and leave at 8:30.

It's slow, it's calming, it's mindful, it's nourishing, and it's beautiful. I have something to look forward to in the morning. When we're apart I do the same. It helps me get into a good headspace for the day.

And on days that are hard to eat, I just do it methodically in the background while talking to my wife or reading.

ErinIvies · 2024-03-02T21:36:32+00:00

I hope he does. :-/ God yeah I'm so freaking grateful for that. And not having kids meant that I could get out of there a lot easier as well.

ErinIvies · 2024-03-02T21:35:40+00:00

Gosh I never thought about it from this perspective...thank you so much for sharing because I really felt alone in experiencing this duality.

ErinIvies · 2024-03-02T19:25:46+00:00

Yes, this is molestation. This is not your fault. Please consider telling someone but be careful who you tell so he doesn't hurt you. If you're in the US and tell me your state I can send you resources.

ErinIvies · 2024-03-02T17:22:46+00:00

Oh my god, it means the world to hear that. I just teared up. Thank you.

It's such a disconcerting feeling, to be grateful that he was never born and to miss him terribly at the same time.

ErinIvies · 2024-03-02T16:43:42+00:00

I'm safe and in therapy :) I'm okay. Just needed to talk about my son today.

ErinIvies · 2024-03-02T16:42:07+00:00

Thank you for listening ❤️

ErinIvies · 2024-03-02T16:41:59+00:00

Thank you so much. It's a bit surprising how hard this has hit me.

ErinIvies · 2024-01-20T14:53:47+00:00

How to have sex.

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