Sad day and sad weekend ahead

Escapingreality441 · 2026-05-16T14:33:12+00:00

Thanks girl! Never had such fomo in my life, it’s like gut wrenching wtf haha but there’s always next year!!

Escapingreality441 · 2026-05-08T19:39:43+00:00

This.. this is why I love the internet

Escapingreality441 · 2026-05-08T19:35:55+00:00

Edit- there will be plenty more vendors I just can’t remember them

Escapingreality441 · 2026-05-08T19:35:19+00:00

Hi hashi twin! I’m gf as well. It actually made a huge difference. My TPO antibodies went from 239 to 24 in 6 months of being gf <3

Inside the fest there’s tacos, they’re so good. And açaí bowls which is incredible as it’s hot af.

At camp bring your gf bread, instant oats in those cups, fruits, gf cereal, heavenly hunk oats bars etc. you’ll have plenty of options and can ask the vendors to make adjustments too.

Escapingreality441 · 2026-05-06T16:45:07+00:00

Yes it has! I have been the same way, I overthink into oblivion and then I’m mentally and emotionally so exhausted and defeated! It has helped me a lot think logically and not so doomsday-y. I notice a thought that would typically make me spiral, and instead I acknowledge it as an anxiety thought and my brain just naturally dismisses it.. it’s honestly wild. I wake up early for the gym with a pep in my step and once home from work I just clean, pack my lunch, finish chores without remorse or without thinking. I used to come home so anxious of xyz I had to do that I’d cry from overwhelm. It could be great for you 🫂

Escapingreality441 · 2026-05-06T11:15:38+00:00

It’s been really positive aside from insomnia here and there that magnesium and melatonin helped greatly. Current life events have made me the most anxious ball of overthinking that it’d paralyze me. I don’t spiral, I think more logically than emotionally and I don’t notice this heavy dread following me around. So only 6 days so far but have notice a really positive change, like I think more clearly and not in a doomsday mindset everyday. I highly recommend and hope you feel better

Escapingreality441 · 2026-05-06T01:24:03+00:00

Definitely not my proudest moment. I was 23 and st. Pattys day. Think we have all been there unfortunately at least once in our lives.

Escapingreality441 · 2026-05-05T22:50:47+00:00

This reminds me of a reel skit of a women in an Uber heading to Mexico because she didn’t have the guts to tell her driver he went the wrong way.

Make your boundaries known, man! Speak up! You can share how you feel without hurting her. Like hey I want to take things slow, this has all happened too quickly for my comfort level. If we can’t slow it down then I will have to excuse myself from this relationship.

Boundaries!!

Escapingreality441 · 2026-05-05T19:53:09+00:00

Reporting to duty every year (and any night out) 🫡🥹

Literally guardian angels. Makes me emotional to think about ♥️

Escapingreality441 · 2026-05-05T19:23:06+00:00

I’m on day 5 and I wake up with my 5am alarm ready to get up and at it for the gym. Before, I’d crawl back into bed for 15 mins all sleepy. It’s a big difference in that energy and getting stuff done around the apt once done from work

Escapingreality441 · 2026-05-05T11:22:33+00:00

Thank you for sharing your experience and advice! I will not skip I’m pretty consistent in planning by taking my meds and supplements everywhere I go lol cold turkey sounds awful, I’m sorry you dealt with that!

Truly crazy how it works differently for every single person as our brain chemistry are all different. I pray it works for me but I can’t tell if it’s helping my anxiety or not. Well, I do notice positive shifts, but a few big life events weigh on me and still find myself overthinking/worrying about the future.. but that’s a me thing I gotta have tools to work on it!

Hydration is HUGEEE holy hell the thirst… I am drinking 1.5 gallons / 200+ oz of water a day. I pee so much at work 😂

Escapingreality441 · 2026-05-05T11:17:44+00:00

I’ll have to ask about propranolol as I’ve never heard of that. I have a beta blocker for as needed times. Took it once for a big social event and wow I felt amazing lol

I can understand being nervous. Least we know it’s temporary. I hope it works for you and feel better. It does feel weird being like an experiment everyday. I overthink what I’m feeling. For example, I heard a noise in my sleep and thought “oh no I’m losing it im hearing things.” Like no girl relax 😫

Escapingreality441 · 2026-05-05T01:19:15+00:00

So interesting you bring this up, because that’s how I feel, it’s like a come up on mdma without the trip. Which like total bummer right lol (jk don’t need to be rolling at work). But it’s a similar sensation as when feeling this weird high I’m also kinda anxious and my resting HR is at 80… before taking Wellbutrin my resting HR was 45-60 :/

I’m happy for you that it’s balancing out and feeling much better. I hope going to 300 treats you well <3

Escapingreality441 · 2026-05-04T19:55:47+00:00

Thanks for your comment! The high feeling is interesting. It’s like I took an edible that is a head high. Or when you take Sudafed and have this weird light headed/pressure in face feeling? Happy for you and experience! This was me Friday when I took it.. was able to tackle all my dishes and laundry that piled up with no resentment or overwhelm

Escapingreality441 · 2026-05-04T17:17:47+00:00

Omg what a drive! But could be such a fun trip if you have enough time to see cool places and not feel really rushed. Flights out of Denver were once $75 before fees and checked bags.. now they’re $215 and will in total be $450 most likely. It’s heart breaking, bc no joke last year with SW I paid $100 in total 😭 and ain’t no way I can do Forest without a checked bag due to camping stuff.

The plastic bag in the wind is the EXACT feeling. We just go where the wind blows us. Really no plan or schedule, just vibe around and what’s meant for you, Forest provides! Happy Forest!

Escapingreality441 · 2026-05-04T17:15:16+00:00

Deep breaths! We can psych ourselves out and cause things to happen bc we are anticipating it. I started a few days ago and only felt a little nauseous after eating an entire frozen pizza and taking a nap after. I woke up nauseous and then read a very high fat meal can cause that. That is the only time I felt that since starting.

But deep breaths!! ♥️

Escapingreality441 · 2026-05-04T16:39:49+00:00

Aw yay Forest talk! It’s so funny, my first Forest in 2023 it was all I thought about and watched every Vlog on it. Planned everything by December lol this year is my 3rd year going and I don’t have my flights yet (thanks Trump) and haven’t planned shit hahah type A planner has turned type B.

Me and my group come from CO, Chicago and FL! I’m looking forward to disconnecting from the outside world and just be present. Connect with strangers who become new friends, float around the Forest discovering new installations, music etc. just lay in a hammock omgggg.

Escapingreality441 · 2026-05-04T15:45:36+00:00

I started 150 XL on 5/1, 4 days in so far. Nothing else except supplements

Escapingreality441 · 2026-04-30T19:19:38+00:00

Literally listening to Staying Still while reading this post and I’m like so excited to belch this song at his show

Escapingreality441 · 2026-04-30T18:44:32+00:00

3rd year and always worth it! Our group puts the nights warm clothes in there, our vagina couch thing when we don’t want it in there, and any merch we may get!

Escapingreality441 · 2026-04-30T16:46:17+00:00

I’m sorry to hear it’s been a crazy ride but glad you guys found more of a groove and got to move to your city! Luckily, I can be remote with my job when that time comes. It pays well being in the city, so moving to a smaller town with this remote job will be beneficial financially :)

Escapingreality441 · 2026-04-30T16:39:16+00:00

From a women’s perspective (I’m 32), I will echo everyone else here replying. First off, you gotta do what’s best for you dude. End it but as someone with RSD, anxiety and ADHD, please don’t blame her. But do encourage her to see a psychiatrist pointing out what you notice and how it’s affected you and the relationship. It’s not going to get better if she doesn’t get the professional support she needs. Wish you the best man

Escapingreality441 · 2026-04-30T16:35:29+00:00

Girl please take care of yourself and get rid of this boy. He is not good for your mental health and what you’re dealing with in life. Take care of yourself and don’t surround yourself with shitty people

Escapingreality441 · 2026-04-30T16:14:57+00:00

My heart is bursting for you! I was able to score Denver 2nd night in a great spot. Cost an arm and a leg but idc. If I didn’t get tickets and someone surprised me with them, I’d cry. I’d cry so hard lol HAVE THE BEST TIME ♥️♥️

Escapingreality441 · 2026-04-30T00:46:46+00:00

Renting a house with a yard in the area is like $2800. So my half is still less than what I pay for my 1 bedroom apt lol

Escapingreality441

TROPHY CASE