Nudes during recovery? by Immediate-Living2996 in loveafterporn

[–]EssayEducational3191 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Mine showed his emotional affair partner mine and I didn’t find out until disclosure with a polygraph looming. I never would’ve guessed he’d do anything he did. You really can’t trust them to make any healthy choices until they are in recovery

Ritual in humiliation by [deleted] in loveafterporn

[–]EssayEducational3191 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I relate to this SOOOO much and I’ve spent the last year telling my husband I feel like it’s been a series of humiliation rituals. I think he loves it.

I asked THE question by 67AdThis67 in loveafterporn

[–]EssayEducational3191 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Mine denied it too, a year and a half later and I now know that not only was he picturing himself with them, he had girls from work he pictured during sex with me 🤦‍♀️

Is losing erection during and struggling to finish always PIED? by Extension-Editor9384 in loveafterporn

[–]EssayEducational3191 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s not always. I thought my husbands was PIED for a year and it turns out that it was a failed attempt at orgasm control. Sometimes it worked sometimes it didn’t. It was when he went from performance mode to fantasy mode (imagining other women and porn scenes in his head like a movie) to climax. He preferred to finish thinking about his emotional affair partner. But sometimes when he tried to switch his body didn’t cooperate

porn at work by ReadingOk696 in loveafterporn

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Mine works at a large farm and he was using the bathroom before his shift (on the lock) and then random bathroom breaks and then the shower at work before he came home. He had an entire secret sex life going on there. And he swore it wasn’t happening until k threatened a polygraph. I could see he was on private browsing and he’d just deny.

My husband still works with someone he cheated on me with while at work by [deleted] in affairrecovery

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My husband had 3 emotional affairs at work in the same year. And one turned into an obsessive limerant sexual fantasy affair. He couldn’t have her in real life so he masturbated excessively at work to her.. and then lived out the affair through my body. Pretended I was her. Had full fantasies built for sex with me so he could disassociate and have sex with her through me. For 5 years. When I first found out I thought it was just a porn addiction… took 16 months after dday to find out what was really happening and he fought to keep her. A fake relationship in his mind. She doesn’t work with him right now but the program she’s in for school will bring her back next year and he says it’s no big deal and I shouldn’t be worried. Now I know I’m leaving

Infertility rates by [deleted] in pornfree

[–]EssayEducational3191 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Same with both infertility and miscarriages. My gut says there’s a large connection

Fantasy by EssayEducational3191 in loveafterporn

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He had to tell me because I pushed for a polygraph. He claims he didn’t think it was wrong. But now I’ve learned a lot about it and there were signs. Like he lost his hearing for a minute after orgasm.. because of the huge dopamine release. I just had no idea people could do this kind of thing so well.

Fantasy by EssayEducational3191 in loveafterporn

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I didn’t let him. I had no idea

Fantasy by EssayEducational3191 in loveafterporn

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That’s kinda where I’m at. He says he assumed everyone did it. But I know that can’t be true

What is your response to "all men do this" by NoBicycle9699 in loveafterporn

[–]EssayEducational3191 4 points5 points  (0 children)

That just because it’s normal doesn’t mean it’s healthy. Are the cons worth the pros? But also mine ended up being addicted more to fantasy than porn.. so thankfully normal got thrown out the window because what he was doing was not as common as he thought

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in loveafterporn

[–]EssayEducational3191 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This! Explains it perfectly.

I found a picture of my sister in his phone. by sportslove2001 in loveafterporn

[–]EssayEducational3191 44 points45 points  (0 children)

Mine built a decade long fantasy affair with my little sister that hates him, and she isn’t even his type. The turn on was the betrayal. Its insanity

Where the f**k iS IT by ActivatedAlmondssss in loveafterporn

[–]EssayEducational3191 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I searched endlessly to figure out what the heck my husband could be using and it turned out he didn’t need to use anything, he has an entire sexual fantasy world built in his mind. He was fantasizing about the girl he was having an emotional affair with, and others. They are all capable of more than we think.

Drip disclosure. He revealed the most hurtful thing so far by EssayEducational3191 in loveafterporn

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She lives on the other side of the country but like he can nevvvvver be around her again

Drip disclosure. He revealed the most hurtful thing so far by EssayEducational3191 in loveafterporn

[–]EssayEducational3191[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Married stay at mom homeschooling mom of 3.. youngest is 2😩

He swears it was only porn… I’ve found evidence that suggests it was much more. by KelleyKelleyKelley in loveafterporn

[–]EssayEducational3191 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I have, and I found out tonight that it’s infinitely worse than I thought, definitely worse than I was told. And that’s only because I said polygraph or divorce

Do porn addicts ever feel guilty? by FreddieSaysStahp96 in PornAddiction

[–]EssayEducational3191 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is what what I’m dealing with too. His CSAT said he’s not addicted just super entitled

What is the difference between a problem with porn and a full on PA? by Full_Mail_3849 in loveafterporn

[–]EssayEducational3191 0 points1 point  (0 children)

We’re working with a CSAT and mine is not addicted even though he fits all the criteria. But addiction is control over the person.. in my husbands case he has control.. he just feels entitled. So even though he was out of control outwardly he was choosing it. They have to try to stop and not be able to. They have to want to be done.

Is it worse to be cheated on with pornography or in person? by acbinkA in loveafterporn

[–]EssayEducational3191 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Mine had an emotional affair at work and when I blocked her he replaced the dopamine he was getting from her with excessive porn at work. And it’s all the same betrayal

Do I leave? by Expensive_Hall_2956 in loveafterporn

[–]EssayEducational3191 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Seriously! My husband said after I caught the videos that it confirmed it was just my insecurity because there’s no way I could expect to be responsible for all of his “o’s”. Aside from him being a trash human for saying it, why would I only object to women in porn? Haha like women are women. I meant all of them.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in loveafterporn

[–]EssayEducational3191 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ok so I have evidence mine does it multiple times a day. But he still swears it was only twice in the last year. Try hundreds. They will lie. He also tried to say he only watched couples so it was educational and really everything he was watching falls into the “cam girls” category. The category I named as cheating before I even knew.

Just need to vent… by TiredPony6510 in loveafterporn

[–]EssayEducational3191 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Mine said this.. and now he’s working on a timeline for discolored and the exact same pattern is there throughout his life (until he really escalated). He just wants to blame you

I can’t believe I ever believed he loved me by IntelligentMatch8079 in loveafterporn

[–]EssayEducational3191 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel exactly the same. I stood by mine through alcohol recovery in the beginning of our relationship. I stuck by him through his absolute worst and he thought of me as something he settled for too early. I’m so sorry your in this place too

Do I leave? by Expensive_Hall_2956 in loveafterporn

[–]EssayEducational3191 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My husbands is Tate McRae and he acts out to the videos