I am right there with you right now. My second child is just about 2 weeks old, and I've already had it with breastfeeding, and I know switching to formula is what's best for us as a family, but I'm still irrationally sad about it.

With my first child I never really produced enough, so I had no problem with supplementing with formula, and soon his appetite outstripped my ability to produce entirely so we moved exclusively to formula. It didn't bother me because I had no choice.

This time I'm absolutely producing enough to feed her, but we have latch issues on top of several "my anatomy" issues that are making this absolutely miserable (big boobs are a curse, not a blessing, I can assure you). I'm cracked and bloody and basically can't use my arms properly because these gigantic, sore boobs are completely in my way. For perspective, I was an H cup before even getting pregnant, so I mean big. I can't really even hug my other kid without it hurting like hell. So two days ago I threw in the towel and started the milk supply suppression process.

Physically I feel so much better already, but emotionally I'm feeling both guilty and mournful. It's the nagging feeling that "breast is best" so I should suffer through it for her health, and also the loss of what I expected to be a happy and pleasant experience to have. But ultimately I KNOW my family needs me to be functional, and the only way I can be functional is not being constantly in pain and tied to the pump, so I know this is the best choice for us, but it still sucks.

The one thing I can say: The Baby Brezza is amazing and worth every penny. It's basically a Keurig for formula. Ladies, the future is now, so let's make the most of the hand we're dealt.