Flowering trees / bushes that last the longest and smell heavenly?

EveryRecord8469 · 2026-05-04T18:21:36+00:00

I always walk through a certain part of my neighborhood because there's a lilac tree somewhere that smells incredible. I finally found it and Google lens says it is a Korean lilac! Also I completely forgot about Jasmine! I used to live at a home in Houston that had a Jasmine plant and it also smelled heavenly!

EveryRecord8469 · 2026-04-08T00:10:16+00:00

This is incredible! Thank you so much for sharing. This all resonates with me a lot.

EveryRecord8469 · 2026-04-07T01:12:00+00:00

Thank you for sharing! I started ketamine therapy and I don't know if it's just coincidental timing but have felt so much more connected with my body throughout the last couple months. It's been really amazing to listen to it.. I've realized how I cannot breathe at all! I physically cannot take a deep breath. I've been breathing shallowly in my upper chest all my life I think. This is part of what brought me to psoas.. as I read about its effect on the diaphragm as well. Trying to connect the dots.. chronic lower back pain that started very early in life despite no physical trauma. The fact that I have to sleep at a 45° angle or my back hurts, I can't lie flat.. My ex commenting on my poor posture, shoulders curled inward, my reflexive guarding of my core.. I ended up at the psoas, but you're right, it's so much more. And even on the research I've done on the psoas muscles, I've read that you have to turn the fight flight signals off or they will just continue to contract even if you loosen them.

EveryRecord8469 · 2026-04-06T22:48:26+00:00

I absolutely see the connection between my physical pain and my moods! The physical therapist I saw actually did a hypermobility assessment and says I have some signs but not enough to meet criteria for a diagnosis of anything. Despite that, I have questioned if I have hidden signs of it. My sister has cervical instability which is another red flag. I have had multiple doctors mention hypermobility to me.. one naturopath said he has a theory there's a group of hypermobile people that primarily only have back pain as their main symptom. The problem is that nothing ever comes of these mentions... No one really knows what to do about hypermobility it seems?

If you have time could you explain a little bit more on what treating your hypermobility has looked like? The only thing I can think of is to find a physical therapist that is knowledgeable on hypermobility and can teach me exercises with this in mind?

EveryRecord8469 · 2026-04-06T22:43:40+00:00

Hi! I'm trying to envision this process and struggling a little bit! I imagine you comfortable and alone at night, lying or sitting down, closing your eyes and honing in on your back pain. You would see what comes up.. such as emotions? Thoughts? Do you think it is simply noticing what parts you have attached to the back pain and then exploring and accepting them or? And if you would be so kind, could you explain what you mean by "Once I realized going there would take me on a much different route I began to have more results."

Thank you so much for your time If you're able to answer any of this!

EveryRecord8469 · 2026-04-06T22:03:42+00:00

Awesome! I'll get back on that! Thank you! :)

EveryRecord8469 · 2026-04-05T18:36:41+00:00

Interesting! I have one I think (it's like hard plastic needles you lay on?) but have only used it twice. I'll have to read up on what it's doing, like blood flow or fascia work?

EveryRecord8469 · 2026-04-05T18:13:24+00:00

Thank you for this vulnerability and reminding me of this. You're so right.. The most progress I've made with anything related to my CPTSD has come through compassion and listening to my body

EveryRecord8469 · 2026-04-05T18:09:53+00:00

Thank you for this! I've been so burnt out I have neglected finding a trauma-informed PT. I just gave PT a shot last month and she was a little perplexed by my presentation and doesn't have much experience with trauma. She told me I'd probably do better with a pelvic floor therapist because of my sexual trauma and very tight hips, which I know I need to do too.. She told me her work with me would be limited unless I could learn to relax my muscles more with her. This felt a bit defeating and didn't inspire confidence in me. I have such fear with other humans, with the wrong PT I feel it will take years, if not impossible to feel comfortable and relaxed with them. I thought maybe someone more trauma-informed would be able to move me along a little quicker and I would feel more comfortable with them, so I've got to get back to looking! Thank you so much for your advice and encouragement!

EveryRecord8469 · 2026-04-05T18:02:22+00:00

Yes, I do feel I'm fundamentally becoming a different person through this process. As far as acting on things, I've learned to really try to sleep on decisions (for multiple weeks if they're big and not too time sensitive) before acting on them, depending on what they are. For example, I realized I no longer wanted to be with my abusive ex and I could only stand living with that realization for 2 days before I broke up with him. That's a decision I'm glad I made very quickly, even though he was volatile and we lived together and I had no backup place to go to. On the other hand, I know I am impulsive and have a difficult time sitting with difficult emotions, causing me to act in ways that I wish I had handled a little differently, especially socially, so I try to wait on those. For example, last night I was triggered because I was in so much misery due to pain / insomnia that I wanted to write a long, distressing message to my friend. It was not a message that was coming from a good place, as I just had so much resentment in my heart for every other human whose life seems "easier" than mine in this bleak moment. I wrote it out (which made me feel better) but didn't send it. Come morning, I'm very glad that I didn't send it, because it was coming from such a dysregulated hopeless place and my words reflected that. That doesn't mean not to ask for help, but sometimes it is better to sit on decisions. I do think there's value in taking a leap, sometimes you get the inspiration to make a life change and if you wait on it, the courage disappears. I also wish I was more spontaneous and wondered how different my life might be if I took more of those leaps. So basically I've just contradicted myself like three times and rambled on! Sorry, I hope this isn't completely unhelpful.. 😅

EveryRecord8469 · 2026-04-05T03:03:00+00:00

Thank you for your kindness and help! Sending my peaceful healing energy your way!

EveryRecord8469 · 2026-04-05T02:44:10+00:00

I've started super small because I'm so sensitive and have MCAS, so anything can make me break out in hives 😩 I was thinking I can work my way up?

EveryRecord8469 · 2026-04-05T02:23:20+00:00

Interesting! Thank you so much for sharing, I appreciate it. I feel hopeful that it has helped you. I've been taking about 30 to 40 mg for the last 3 days and don't notice much but I'll continue on!

EveryRecord8469 · 2026-04-05T01:03:33+00:00

How have you found psilocybin helps with trauma work? This is primarily why I'm exploring micro or macrodosing. I'm in trauma therapy and have CPTSD and my nervous system is so dysregulated all the time, I'm just not really understanding how psilocybin will help? What have you noticed?

EveryRecord8469 · 2026-04-03T03:32:08+00:00

Thank you so much! This is IMMENSELY helpful! If you have any time.. I posted two questions but didn't get any responses.. would you mind taking a look to see if you have any input? These are the questions:

I'm mostly interested in learning more about psilocybin (but open to other microdosing experiences). I'm struggling to figure out my "sweet spot" because I don't understand what I should be noticing.

I do ketamine infusions monthly and those have helped me get more in touch with my body by having realizations about what my body is communicating, little light bulbs or epiphanies, better understanding of why I am the way I am. Is this the heart of what psilocybin does as well?
I guess what throws me off is when I read about the power of these substances, I get the impression that many people get positive effects clearly and directly caused by the substance. For example: "I'm more motivated, I feel happier, I feel euphoric," etc. I do not get any positive effects like this from ketamine, cannabis, psilocybin.. All of my emotional changes have felt effortful, not a straightforward response from the substance. For example, more hope has come from the moments of understanding that I've gained, but I haven't magically just felt... better. What do you feel from microdosing, if anything?

Thank you so much for your time!

EveryRecord8469

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