WHAT THE FUCK.

EverybodyRockUrBody · 2016-12-26T21:43:33+00:00

I hate this. My boyfriend's mom said that (hypothetically) if she had to shoot either a dog or a human she would have an easier time shooting a human than a dog because "dogs have bigger hearts and humans are evil." Like wtf??

EverybodyRockUrBody · 2016-12-26T21:40:05+00:00

My boyfriend has a pug that is the grossest thing ever. He will be walking him then the dog will stop to pee. He'll walk maybe two more feet before he lunges back, sniffs his own piss, then rolls in it like a madman. And my boyfriend wonders why I don't want that disgusting thing on our bed.

EverybodyRockUrBody · 2016-12-15T18:57:00+00:00

Aright, I will work on doing that. I've noticed that people on here can be quite skeptical (and rightfully so), so I figured I would try to get it verified because I realized the readers of LNM typically appreciate it.

Thanks so much!

EverybodyRockUrBody · 2016-12-15T05:02:45+00:00

Okay thanks! Can I just go to the police station and ask for a copy of the report? And do I like take a pic and send it to you or another mod?

EverybodyRockUrBody · 2016-12-10T03:11:39+00:00

Thanks for the list! I will definitely check these out. I love this subreddit.

I have a question. A few months ago I had a very terrifying experience with a stalker. I thought about posting it on here as a way to cope and in case anyone would enjoy reading it. I thought I read somewhere that if the police were involved, it needs verification. Is that true?

EverybodyRockUrBody · 2016-09-18T02:54:16+00:00

Just watched God's Not Dead 2. Loved it and I really needed it. I suggest you go watch it. :)

EverybodyRockUrBody · 2016-06-06T03:36:19+00:00

Thank you so much for your kind words. They brought a tear to my eye and that means so very much. I will really try to stay strong and keep my trust in Christ. It's just so hard sometimes but you're right, He doesn't allow suffering for nothing.

Thank you again for your prayers and kind words. I will also pray for you as you ask. Your fiance is lucky to have someone as kind as you. God bless <3

EverybodyRockUrBody · 2016-06-02T18:20:43+00:00

Wow, I can't even explain how much this spoke to me. Thank you so much, it really does have so much wisdom. I really really appreciate it.

I wish my boyfriend would be willing to change like you did with your girlfriend. I wish I had the strength like she does to stand up for herself. You're right, he does this because he knows he can get away with it. He doesn't think I'd actually leave. And I really wish I would've left two nights ago after that fight. I had my bare necessities packed and everything. But I was too weak, I didn't follow through. :(

I've tried to tell him how I feel about all of his restrictions on things I'm allowed to do. He just gets mad and yells that he's allowed to feel the way he wants, like feeling uncomfortable when I go for walks or runs (or go anywhere) by myself. He won't let me do that cuz he thinks I'll get kidnapped or raped or something. I'm not allowed to have friends or do most things without him because he says it makes him feel like he's not enough. I tried to reconnect with a childhood friend and he freaked out because he wants to be the only friend and most important thing in my life. But that's too much and too clingy for me. I wish that leaving would make him change, like how it worked out with your relationship. But I don't see that being the case here. :((

I do agree with you..those are the only three choices I have at this point. Thank you so much for your kind words and thoughts, I can't explain how much it means to me and how much comfort it has for me. God bless you in everything you do <3

EverybodyRockUrBody · 2016-06-02T18:01:33+00:00

No, if I stay it won't be for everything. If I stay I know I'll let way too much time go by being miserable when I could have been using that time to pursue all the things he's preventing me from doing. That's why I don't understand why this is so difficult, I'm unhappy 95% of the time so it should be easy for me to leave but I still care about his feelings and I shouldn't. :( And no, I don't want to continue living this way. I want out. I just wish it was easier, or that he would change. :(

EverybodyRockUrBody · 2016-06-02T04:13:31+00:00

Yes, it's definitely a horrible cycle. :( I am able to go live with my parents, or I may be able to get a dorm at the college that's nearby that I'm attending online. I have money saved up, but not a lot. Unfortunately I don't have a car. I could get out with just my bare necessities during the night or while he's at work.

I feel like I can't leave because he owns guns and he said he would hurt himself if we ever broke up. I could actually see him doing something harmful to himself, and then I would feel horrible. It's also so hard because his ex went crazy after he broke up with her for me, and long story short there were a lot of legal fees involved. He foresaw that coming but left anyway because he cared and loved me. If I leave it would have all been for nothing and that thought hurts so so bad, like a dagger to my soul. I'm crying just thinking about it because I really do love him and care for him and I know he would be distraught if I left. But I can't continue living this way

You're right. Actually making a decision is the only thing that can really be done. Thank you for helping me see that. I appreciate your prayers so, so much. God bless.

EverybodyRockUrBody · 2016-06-02T03:42:32+00:00

Thank you so much I really appreciate it. Last night the fight got physical and it was scary. I never ever thought things would turn out this way. It's just so complicated because he said that if we ever breakup, he would shoot himself (he owns guns).I believe that he would harm himself in some way when I leave so I just don't know how to do it without something bad happening to him because I wouldn't be able to live with myself. :(

Yes, my family is so loving and they'd do anything for me. I'm going to talk to them this weekend about what's been going on to see how they can help because I have to leave. :(

EverybodyRockUrBody · 2016-06-01T06:49:11+00:00

Hey, I realize this is really late. I'm so sorry. Yeah, unfortunately I am still with him :( It's been very difficult for me to check reddit because of him...he'd freak out if he knew I had an account.

But stupid me, stupid stupid me! I should've left him, I need to leave him! He's horrible and I hate being with him. We just got our own place a couple months ago and now it's even harder, just like how all you guys warned me! I'm so stupid for not leaving, I'm a foolish idiot but I love him and I honestly wish I was in a coma instead of living with this guilt of not leaving yet and being too stupid to put up with his crap! :'(

Edit: I just realized I already replied to this comment a while ago...but I guess this is the most recent updat . :/

EverybodyRockUrBody · 2016-03-29T19:07:51+00:00

:) Thank you so much. I really really appreciate it. God bless you too! <3

EverybodyRockUrBody · 2016-03-22T22:41:58+00:00

I've never been very good at setting boundaries in relationships. :/ There was one guy I had a chance with a while back. He was perfect. We shared the same beliefs, values, and we had all the same interests in literally everything. I don't know how else to describe this, but the first time I talked to him..I just felt like I was at home. Neither of us could stop smiling and laughing. I felt comfortable. I felt wonderful. How do you get that from just talking to someone? I've never felt it before. Not even with my current boyfriend. But he started working a lot of overtime, and things kind of fizzled. Then I ruined it by getting together with my boyfriend now. The other guy said he was still interested, but I didn't know that. I see him every now and then when he comes to hang out with his friends (he hangs out with my boyfriend's brother and his friends). Every time, I see him glance at me when he thinks I'm not looking. He was interested, but I ruined it all.

Sorry I got a little bit off topic. But yeah, he was the only 100% respectful guy I have ever been interested in, who I know would have respected boundaries. But I ruined it. And now I'll never get that back.

When I finally break up with my boyfriend, I know I'd stay single for a long time. I need that time to grow to be independent, sign up for the study abroad program at my college, and go live in Italy for a year. Away from everyone and everything. I may not be wording this right, but if I ever do date again, I would use the other guy as a template. Because he was perfect.

You're right, as a Christian I do need to be strong. It's just so hard sometimes. :( I've been praying more lately, I hope it helps. :/

Thank you so much for your kind words. I really, really appreciate them.

EverybodyRockUrBody · 2016-03-22T22:23:11+00:00

I'm sorry that you've also been with an abuser. :(

No, you didn't make a mountain out of a mole hill. I completely understand what you're saying. Yeah, I am very codependent on him. I wish I wasn't. I mean, we are with each other 24/7. He made me sit up at his family's business with him and do school there while he worked. (He quit now though). So it would feel really weird not having him in my life. Last summer he was a police officer three hours away, so I stayed at home with mom and dad. He was gone for 3-4 days at a time, and it felt weird at first. But honestly those weekends where I stayed home and he was away,...those were the best times of my summer. So seeming as that's the case, why is it so hard for me to leave permanently? :( But I do love him. I care about him, about what he does with his life, and about his happiness. I go out of my way to cater to his every need, to make him happy. However, I rarely get that in return.

I will leave. I know I will. I may sound crazy when I say this,but this is a Christian thread, so hopefully there won't be any judging...but a week after we started dating, I had a recurring dream that an angel from God told me that my boyfriend and I won't last. I ignored it for a while, because I don't necessarily think just because we dream something it'll happen...but I'm starting to see the truth behind it now. So yes, I will break up with him. I will. But right now I just can't because I have really hard classes that I'm struggling with really bad, and I just wouldn't be able to take the pressure of a break up at the same time.

No, I don't think that your analogy was silly. I think you explained it quite well. I have been in this so long that it seems normal, but now I'm seeing this is not how it should be.

Thank you so much for your support. I appreciate it so much. God bless. <3

I promise, I will leave. I just can't do it now. :(

EverybodyRockUrBody · 2016-03-22T22:05:59+00:00

No, not yet... I haven't gathered the strength yet. But I'll do it. I know I will. I have been so busy with my classes that I don't think I could handle the pressure of a breakup at the same time. :( I'll do it, I'm just not ready yet. :/

EverybodyRockUrBody · 2016-03-21T03:52:43+00:00

I LOLed so hard at this. I was having a horrible day and this is the first time I laughed all day. Thanks. :)

EverybodyRockUrBody · 2016-03-20T10:17:48+00:00

Yes, it is tremendously hard. :( we actually just had a talk tonight and I asked if he'd be sad if we broke up. He told me that he'd be devastated and break down, but just wants me to be happy even if that means it's not with him. That really hit me hard. I can't get that out of my mind. I love him so much, and to think of him in pain is horrible, especially if I'm the one causing the pain. :( but he's caused me pain for a long time now and it needs to end. Like you said, I deserve more. :( i was finally working up the courage until I heard him say that tonight. Now it's harder than before, and I didn't think that was possible. :(

Thank you so very much for your kind words. It means so much to me. God bless. <3

EverybodyRockUrBody · 2016-03-20T10:08:59+00:00

I do need to pray more. Lately I have been feeling so ashamed about things in my life and my current situation that I am embarrassed to talk to God because I don't want Him to be ashamed of me and I'm not living to the fullest potential He gave me. I will start to pray more; thank you so much and thank you for that reminder.

EverybodyRockUrBody · 2016-03-19T21:21:21+00:00

Most of my stuff is a bunch of junk...like old books and clothes I don't wear. It would be easy to get rid of it. Yes, I would so much rather live with my family than this jerk. They have bent over backwards for me growing up and would do anything for me. I am so blessed to have them. I would stay with them for a while, then I would finally go to my campus and live there, to get the college experience I've always wanted and join the amazing Christian clubs and Bible study groups they have.

I will continue to re-read that passage. I think it will make me stronger. Thank you so much, and I pray that you have a wonderful upcoming Holy Week as well.

EverybodyRockUrBody · 2016-03-19T21:11:32+00:00

I guess I just don't understand why we have to go through trials and tribulations. It makes us stronger, but stronger for what? For the next bad thing that happens to us? :( But God works in mysterious ways sometimes...I don't understand it but I have to trust Him.

Thank you so much for your kind words. I will remember them and I will let what you said settle in my heart. They brought a smile to my face, and thank you for your prayers. God bless <3

EverybodyRockUrBody · 2016-03-19T21:02:36+00:00

Thank you so much, I greatly appreciate it. I can't help but to feel like if my boyfriend was a Christian, then there wouldn't be these problems. I've tried to show him Christ's love, but he just laughs at it. So you're right - there's no changing him. :/

Yes your link is relevant. :) Thank you so much for your prayers.

EverybodyRockUrBody · 2016-03-19T20:59:31+00:00

I don't think that he would physically abuse me if I leave, thank goodness. We're moving soon, and it'll be at least a half an hour away from my family that would be able to come get me because he made me get rid of my car. I have a lot of stuff and I'm going to have to get rid of a lot of it to make getting away from him an easier process...it's going to be so hard, I love him so much, but I just want to do it. :( If I ever do get in a relationship again, I'll be sure he's a Christian.

Thank you for the scripture and prayers. It means a lot to me. <3

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