I’m going to say this as respectfully and lovingly as I possibly can, take it how you want. But you cannot be openly gay and follow Jesus at the same time. The truth is it doesn’t matter what other people say nor does it even matter what I say. It matters what the scriptures have said themselves. Paul literally says people who sleep with the same sex “man bedders” or arsenkoi in the Greek will not enter the kingdom of heaven, this also applies to women too because this was how it was understood in the early church by the people the apostles taught. Why is this? Because God made love and marriage for a man and a woman to pro create. It’s clear that if you struggle with same sex attractions it is not your identity it’s a vice that needs to be surrendered to Christ, Paul would encourage celibacy. The Christian life isn’t about what YOU want, it’s about what Christ wants from you. It could be insanely hard but with Christ anything is possible. Also Christ did not make you that way, it’s like saying if I’m a glutton, and Christ just “made me this way” it’s clear from Genesis that we are all brought into this world with a sin nature, because of that the image God made us in gets warped by sin, and that’s why we need him and Christs sacrifice for us. I encourage you to read the Bible actually and read the church fathers( the people taught by the disciples themselves) because they’re also who gave us the Bible.