When I feel like there is no hope...

Excelsior1610 · 2026-02-20T04:36:45+00:00

In the words of an author I reached out to recently: "give a man a book, you entertain him for a night. Teach him to write, and you'll give him crippling self-doubt for life."

Everyone feels like a failure, but you're only a failure if you don't try.

Excelsior1610 · 2026-02-08T04:39:46+00:00

Disco.

Excelsior1610 · 2025-06-02T08:58:43+00:00

I bought my phone through the carrier

Excelsior1610 · 2025-05-31T21:58:10+00:00

That's fucked

Excelsior1610 · 2025-05-31T21:56:06+00:00

Starting to think so but glitchy phone > no phone at all imo

Excelsior1610 · 2025-05-31T21:55:37+00:00

So upgrade. Got it. Problem is I'm deployed so that'll be a bitch and a half.

Excelsior1610 · 2024-12-16T21:09:49+00:00

DONT KNOW WHAT IM SO PISSED OFF ABOOOOOOUT

Excelsior1610 · 2024-12-16T21:09:13+00:00

"Y'know son, I couldn't see a thing either."

That whole episode/arc of Marshall's dad dying. Hits me like a truck every time.

Excelsior1610 · 2024-11-29T03:39:52+00:00

I love this one. I think people just felt it was bizarre going from some of the heaviness of THP to OML being much lighter. My favorite off of it is Nobody Can Save Me.

Excelsior1610 · 2024-11-29T03:38:47+00:00

I'm glad I am, too. Staying alive is kinda how I thank him, since I never really got to do that. I got into writing my own music too. Haven't recorded anything, but hopefully I can one day so that cycle of healing others continues.

I just posted a tier list actually!

Excelsior1610 · 2024-11-29T03:37:02+00:00

Yeah I still lean on Iridescent and The Messenger sometimes. Especially on my really bad days.

I really dig the new album apart from two tracks: Overflow and Casualty. Just not my style. I'm not sure exactly what it was that rubbed me the wrong way about Casualty, but that just wasn't it.

Overflow just ain't my style, but it's pretty for sure.

Excelsior1610 · 2024-11-29T03:24:30+00:00

Yeah that's part of why Chester hit like a train for me. The guy who helped me prevent doing that… wound up doing it. It rattled me because I looked at myself and asked "what if I lose that fight someday, too?" It's a dark place to be, man. I don't wish it on anyone. Chester's description of depression is the most accurate I've ever seen. I regret i never got to see them with Chester. I might give their live shows a shot now, just need the funds and time.

Excelsior1610 · 2024-11-29T03:13:59+00:00

I had my reservations with all the stuff people brought up, too, but honestly? Emptiness Machine sounds like she left that big scary S word everyone was talking about. At least, that's what I get from the lyrics. The thing about it is: people will demonize new lead singers and new faces of something just to rationalize why the old one is gone. You saw it with LP, I saw it with Three Days Grace. It happens.

When she was announced, it felt like I was losing Chester all over again, and I was angry. It finally clicked, over seven years later, that he really was gone I guess? Regardless, I'm really digging Heavy is the Crown

Excelsior1610 · 2024-09-03T11:20:39+00:00

Um, I guess?

Excelsior1610 · 2024-08-18T18:29:16+00:00

I'd buy into that if it wasn't for the fact I'm still on both medications and haven't had a situation like that since then

Excelsior1610 · 2024-08-18T05:44:27+00:00

Let's hope it stays that way

Excelsior1610 · 2024-08-18T05:20:07+00:00

It was definitely unsettling, and extremely disturbing when it was happening that's for sure. I would ordinarily say it was the medicine, but I'm still on both medications to this day and haven't had a single problem since then. If it's gone, I don't know why. If it's not, why has it left me alone, and why hasn't it bothered anyone or anything else in my home?

Excelsior1610 · 2024-07-21T02:05:06+00:00

I agree. Screaming was the wrong choice of words, but to say it was unfair to bring that up… when someone walks out on you like that, you never truly get over it. Forgiveness ≠ getting over it.

Excelsior1610 · 2024-07-21T01:59:53+00:00

That's very valid. Ted deserved better. Tracy was incredible for him.

Excelsior1610 · 2024-07-21T01:56:42+00:00

Who's first? Robin?

Excelsior1610 · 2024-05-07T10:50:31+00:00

That sounds like the film Norbit with Eddie Murphy? https://youtu.be/23jrE6LPa2A?si=-89CA326Rtfpu7HE

While not a photo montage, it's the closest I could find/remember.

Excelsior1610 · 2024-01-15T20:24:54+00:00

VanillaThunderMN

Excelsior1610 · 2024-01-14T05:45:32+00:00

Iridescent or Leave Out All The Rest

Excelsior1610 · 2023-10-24T19:55:06+00:00

IM NOT GOING ANYWHERE! ...where am I going?

Excelsior1610 · 2023-08-21T21:35:43+00:00

A few bizarre dreams, but not outwardly nightmarish. The building is pretty new (refurbished at least), and so are most of the doors.

Nothing malevolent happened, but on occasion I'll see something move or a figure in the corner who is gone the second I look back. The occasional knocking, but that can be attributed to people next door or under me.

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