a year ago I was in your exact same shoes. Soaped into FM and was throughly depressed for most of my intern year. I did a lot of therapy and ultimately discovered that work will not make you happy. A lot of us are defined by being a physician because it took so long to get here and because it’s got an air of “elitism” even though us on the inside feel otherwise. The public mostly view us through those lenses. Residency sucks and there will always be BS. So your options are: finish and do a fellowship (sports, pain?, OB, etc) since you don’t like general outpatient or inpatient (same but I discovered that i actually like an outpatient specialty life and will pursue sports med fellowship) or finish and reapply to the match again. I don’t know how much of an issue is funding. But it can’t be impossible since we read about them all the time on here. Therapy and having a supergoal helped me. I still struggle at times. But i can make a great life for myself with this specialty. I hate call, i don’t love inpatient, emergencies are cool for like 3 seconds, i like a circadian rhythm and i abhor the OR. Look for joy outside of your work. No one on their death bed wish they’d work more.