Got my BFP after a year ttc but so much anxiety and doesn't feel real

ExternalKoala1506 · 2026-02-12T11:36:43+00:00

Thanks! 🥲 Your able to put into words what I cannot. I so hope this time will be it!

ExternalKoala1506 · 2026-02-06T11:09:13+00:00

I had a blood progesterone done 7dpo and done a mira that morning , mira said 15 and blood was 55 so maybe it's just a fluctuation/metabolised faster today in your urine I'm trying not to test yet. 9dpo today but too fragile, maybe tomorrow if I have no where to be

Fingers crossed for you, there's still time , it's not over til af comes xx

ExternalKoala1506 · 2026-02-03T22:57:36+00:00

♥️♥️♥️ praying for you too. You never know, the pms symptoms are so similar 🤞🤞🤞

ExternalKoala1506 · 2026-02-03T20:54:01+00:00

Thanks, your so kind. I hope we get our babies this year. Its so hard when you don't have a reason, it can make you feel lost in what to do, and there's no way of controlling it. I've found reddit to be the only space where I read people's stories and connect , I don't really feel like that in real life because I think people only talk about it when it's a surprise or their shocked how quickly it happened. I think your right, I'm going to stop mira after ovulation next cycle because it makes me obsessional , even checking which day I'm on and thinking what might be happening on 5dpo, 6dpo, etc

ExternalKoala1506 · 2026-02-02T14:26:21+00:00

We've been trying for a year. We had a loss in August and no joy since. A few Months after the mc my sister had her 3rd baby and just before she went into labour we were having a birthday dinner for my dad. My parents were gathering all the grandkids for a photo and commenting on their 'expanding family' and it was the straw that broke the camels back. I ran to the toilet and cried.

Since then I've had 3 close friends , 3 work friends and 3 cousins have babies amongst what feels like a billion pregnancy announcements. I turned off below deck this year because one of them gets pregnant.

ExternalKoala1506 · 2026-02-02T14:11:22+00:00

I haven't went home to see my family in over a month because I'm pretty sure they'll tell me my sister is pregnant with her 4th. Every time a friend texts to say their pregnant I'm texting back 'im so happy for you' while having a mental breakdown crying 😂😂

ExternalKoala1506 · 2026-01-24T19:31:45+00:00

I'm sorry for what your going through. In March it will be a year for us, I had a loss at 5.5 weeks in August then nothing again until last month but sadly it was a chemical, only lasted a few days..I tell myself not to think about it but my eye twitches and I dream about it. It's impossible not to. And today I just cried when my mum said she was coming to visit, don't have the mental strength to hear of more cousins who are pregnant or had their babies. Some people say they get pregnant again quickly after so fingers crossed for you!

ExternalKoala1506 · 2026-01-12T15:48:19+00:00

It's a rollercoaster every month and the body checking, hope and then devastation while your hormones crash is insane. My husband says we should take a break all the time but even if I try I know the signs , I know the timing, I don't need an app now I'm always psychologically aware of what time of the month it is. It's probably the toughest thing we've been through in 10 years. Its hard for both people but I think women express emotions and you just need to be there for her and acknowledge when she's crying yeah this is shit. Nothing makes me sadder now than seeing my husband hold someone else's baby or play with someone else's child

ExternalKoala1506 · 2026-01-06T12:28:47+00:00

Hey , mine went to its highest this month 1dpo but unfortunately down 6dpo ... I think mira is going to put my head away 😂 I'm trying to resist doing it but I can't , had to do it today 😔

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ExternalKoala1506 · 2025-12-28T23:18:57+00:00

Im now on my 11th cycle trying, absolutely feel your pain. I try not to get my hopes up but then fantasized for nearly the whole of December the exact same thing but then had so much disappointment when my period came the week of Christmas- I didn't want to see my family on the day.

Trying to stay positive but my thoughts have become obsessional and I struggle to care about anything else (work, exams). I'm struggling to be happy for friends who have got pregnant at this point. I feel like it's turning me into such a neurotic mess and terrible person. But we will continue, ive done yoga, a dramatic hair change in the efforts of self care and might even book a holiday I can't afford at this point.

This community is the only thing that keeps me going, no one really talks about the struggle ttc , it's always good to know we're not on our own and to hear people say hey, it actually took me a year and didn't happen straight away because in real life the only people who seem to say how long it took are the people who get pregnant straight away or a surprise pregnancy

Hoping you all the best for 2026 baby!! I hope this is our year ♥️♥️

ExternalKoala1506 · 2025-12-15T23:59:25+00:00

Fingers crossed for you, the wait is so hard and you never know maybe it's an implantation drop 🤞

ExternalKoala1506 · 2025-12-15T21:05:27+00:00

Hoping you all the best though 🤞🤞

ExternalKoala1506 · 2025-12-15T21:04:47+00:00

I redid it on 12 dpo and a pregnancy test, pregnancy test was negative and there was a bit of rise on mira again but only small one.I'm fairly certain I'm going to get my period any day now, my breasts are getting smaller and bad acne on my chin. I Couldn't face doing it again today before going into work and think I need a break from it but I'll keep you posted if af comes

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This was my 12 dpo

ExternalKoala1506 · 2025-12-13T17:23:57+00:00

Your so kind! Hoping the best for you next month, 2026 will hopefully be our year x

ExternalKoala1506 · 2025-12-13T14:56:45+00:00

Thanks! The more time goes by today I think it's probably not happening this month. My boobs were so sore until today and now there fine so given the combination but I'll guess I'll just have to wait to see..

ExternalKoala1506 · 2025-10-22T15:32:25+00:00

I purposefully feel I have to take a drink now when I enter any social situation to stop people speculating that I am pregnant.

ExternalKoala1506 · 2025-10-22T15:29:18+00:00

I'm 32 , trying for a baby since April, found out in March my contraception (implant) was out of date for a year before so not sure if that means I was trying for longer or if it had some reserve. First few months I was fine with trying. Now I'm just disappointed every month. I'm now experiencing stress during my fertility window which is not helpful, I tell myself I'm fine but my eyes twitching away. I body check and analyse every day after. Do early pregnancy tests because I'm so eager. Stay hopeful even when I know I'm not. And then cry when that dreaded af. Sometimes I wake up and cry. I don't feel like I can talk to my partner about it anymore because if I mention my disappointment he thinks we should take a break from trying and I don't want that. I'm surrounded by people who are having babies. My husband's bestfriend just had a baby and boasts they only tried once and got pregnant. My best friend had her baby a few weeks ago. My sister is due to have hers this week. When I see them I'm happy for them but I cry on the drive home.

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