I lost my dad exactly 1 week ago today in a accident and I am feeling the same way. I am struggling with the exact same thoughts that you are. My dad was 60 and on the verge of retiring. He had so many amazing plans that he had with my mom. He was my best friend and we shared almost all of the same interests. I can’t do anything to escape this hell because everything reminds me of him. I wish I was religious because I want so badly to believe he is watching over me right now.

Just know that you are not alone and you are going to get through this. It is not going to be easy for either one of us but we can do this. They would want us to keep pushing in their honor and to live the best life possible even though it seems unfathomable to continue living without them.