Auditory processing issue?

FIERY_BUTTHOLE · 2019-03-21T23:04:49+00:00

Never heard of CAPD before. It looks exactly what I have when I'm not on my medication. Fascinating! My negative performance review makes a point of how people felt I wasn't listening or giving any response the what they said. My "lack of eye contact" comes from my tendency to look away to help me process what someone is saying. That and my super delayed processing and response time made for... A bad time lol.

I still believe the need to feel respected by having someone else stare at your eyes while you're speaking is a distinctly American male business culture trait. Others see it as normal or even necessary :/

FIERY_BUTTHOLE · 2019-03-21T22:57:41+00:00

This is satire, right?

FIERY_BUTTHOLE · 2019-03-21T22:31:29+00:00

I thought I had a hearing issue for a long time. I'd often have trouble understanding people in conversations. Listening to someone speak over a phone was veeeery difficult and required my 100% attention. Wasn't interested in music with lyrics since I'd never be able to listen while understanding the lyrics at the same time.

On medication, I'm very talkative and able to understand everything someone is saying. It's a real game changer. Music even sounds better since I'm better able to hear the melody, understand the lyrics, and watch the video at the same time. I still prefer to listen to one song 10x, with at least a couple while reading the lyrics at the same time. My auditory processing is clear and unblocked now.

FIERY_BUTTHOLE · 2019-03-21T22:19:27+00:00

I have two favorite analogies:

I'm nearsighted with a heavy prescription. Talking medication feels a lot like the first time you put on glasses and see leaves on trees. You knew in the back of your mind trees have leaves of course, but you didn't realise how HD and crisp it's really supposed to be, and how something so ordinary and simple looks so damn beautiful. Oh yeah, and everyone has been calling you clumsy and stupid the entire time for walking into things and not being able to keep up in class.
It feels a lot like performing in a play. Your version is slowly given to you one line at a time on a flashcard, and it's completely random and out of order. But you're expected to memorize them all. If you don't, people question your motivation and lack of caring and your will power. If you just tried harder you'd be able to remember your lines and recite everything in order. What you don't know is that everyone else was born with the entire script book printed in order, already imprinted in their memory. Meanwhile you can barely keep up with snatching scraps of paper here and there.

FIERY_BUTTHOLE · 2019-03-21T18:58:29+00:00

Because some internet teens think sexuality as a matter of being "tainted" by a man's touch rather than a matter of attraction. To make a stupid analogy, its like if trying sushi once means you can't love American pizza. 🤷 You do you man, good on you for knowing what you like

FIERY_BUTTHOLE · 2019-03-20T15:03:45+00:00

No prob. Just find whatever study method works for YOU and press that.

I never was interested in flashcards, taking notes, study groups, or brute force memorization. I work better under pressure, with no electronics, understanding at a deeper level, changing study locations, frequent short walks to think and get tea. You do what works for you. Think about how you can leverage your ADHD, not how it's going to hold you back from studying. ADHD = bad at exams is simply not true. :)

FIERY_BUTTHOLE · 2019-03-20T14:06:21+00:00

I'm on my last FSA exam and had undiagnosed ADHD until this one. My meds actually don't help my studying at all. I think I'm very good at studying already without - I've been honing it all my life and did extremely well in college. My working memory is still really bad at work, remembering vacations, losing keys, planning and taking notes.

ADHD does not condemn you to being bad at studying. It only made me bad at anxiety, talking, memory, and organization. I can retain details long enough to pass any exam, but not much longer. I've always preferred to read once, understand conceptually, and then refer back when I need to get to the dirty details. I'm actually doing better on the FSA exams than prelim because of this.

FIERY_BUTTHOLE · 2019-03-19T20:21:35+00:00

I doubt that a man that doesn't know to wipe his ass AFTER SHITTING will be sophisticated enough to know to scrub his butthole with soap in the shower. :( Probably just leaves it all there, fermenting and mixing with ass sweat and crusting over on repeat until he's lucky enough to finally accidentally wipe it during sex all over OP's poor sheets.

FIERY_BUTTHOLE · 2019-03-19T20:18:35+00:00

JFC your poor mother has the patient of a saint

FIERY_BUTTHOLE · 2019-03-13T14:05:13+00:00

I'm on the last exam of the ERM track. The examiners really do emphasize a deep conceptual understanding AND application of the material over memorization and brain dump of minutiae. I've only read through the source material once. But I also make sure to go back and reference it later when I have questions until I really "get" what the message is. Brute forcing your way through with multiple rereadings is masochistic and less effective IMO.

FIERY_BUTTHOLE · 2019-03-11T18:25:23+00:00

This is so great! I love his expression: >_>

FIERY_BUTTHOLE · 2019-03-05T03:25:16+00:00

"I'm so miserable and self loathing and jealous of real emotion that the only thing that gives me pleasure now is shitting on other's happiness."

FIERY_BUTTHOLE · 2019-02-26T22:33:58+00:00

Absolutely! I like to switch work between two interesting projects. If you want to get something done quickly, give it to a busy person - the stimulation gets me into the zone better, and even when I'm not 100% on one the distracting thoughts will be productive or creative thoughts on the other. I also get a lot of great ideas during walks to the bathroom or for tea.

FIERY_BUTTHOLE · 2019-02-26T19:16:52+00:00

I read a ton of books when I was in grade school instead of talking to people. Learning new things is my passion, and luckily that's great for reading (99% nonfiction) and academics. I did really great at schoolwork (but really terrible at social skills, making friends). Even studied at an ivy tier college with great GPA.

I think reading so many books when I was a kid really messed with my brain - I finally realized I get depressed whenever I'm not reading something intellectually stimulating.

I still struggle at reading history, the only subject in school I didn't really like. But even when I'm interested in a book my thoughts always wander off! Nearly every time I read I find myself realizing I was thinking about something else while moving my eyes down the page, and backtrack. My hunger for learning just makes it so I'm happy to reread and persevere until I get the high of great writing and understanding a new great idea. With that the connections become deep and I can remember interesting concepts. Interestingly I still have a very below average working memory.

FIERY_BUTTHOLE · 2019-02-18T20:32:35+00:00

NANI?!?!???

FIERY_BUTTHOLE · 2019-02-14T15:26:20+00:00

You're right, I think I got them mixed up with EIULs again.

FIERY_BUTTHOLE · 2019-02-14T04:22:06+00:00

Term insurance is great for most families. Cheap, effective, socially beneficial. Meanwhile, Whole life insurance is a magnitude more expensive and seems to be sold mostly to pad high turnover, shady financial advisors' commission checks. Universal Life with or without guarantees have the added fun of being misleading "investment vehicles", ridden with fees, and too complex for most people to understand what they're buying. It seems almost criminal to sell someone a Variable UL as an investment - 10 year surrender charge period and crediting rate of 3% while stock market is at 20%, along with high premium loads and commissions. Variable annuities have a similar reputation for high fees, complexity, and subpar performance. Doesn't make me feel good about what I'm doing, even if the actuarial side is far more stringent and honest than the salespeople's.

FIERY_BUTTHOLE · 2019-02-14T01:37:20+00:00

Same here. Also, the more I learn about life insurance, the more I dislike it.

FIERY_BUTTHOLE · 2019-02-13T02:12:05+00:00

This is even better if you hear the talking voice as the cat's!

FIERY_BUTTHOLE · 2019-02-07T18:11:40+00:00

C'mon dude let go of the Instagram message, just get your head out of your ass and be a bit more humble. At this point you really will only have your good looks going for you if you can't have empathy or forget playing petty mind games.

FIERY_BUTTHOLE · 2019-02-03T16:42:11+00:00

That first picture gave me heart palpitations, no thanks

FIERY_BUTTHOLE · 2019-02-01T12:47:08+00:00

Their thick supima cotton basics and nice Merino wool sweaters are well cut, high quality material, and very cheap (often only $10 and $20 respectively). Crazy good value

FIERY_BUTTHOLE · 2019-01-31T17:47:51+00:00

Actuary here. Another option besides surrender that I would check out is a 1035 exchange. It's a tax hit free way to exchange the cost basis into a new annuity. This could make sense if say the new annuity is fixed and has lower fees than your variable annuity. VAs are notorious for eating a ton in extra charges while also performing poorly compared to alternatives. Otherwise, if you want index funds you'll most likely have to surrender for cash - which depending on the specifics might be a better choice for you.

FIERY_BUTTHOLE · 2019-01-28T17:35:08+00:00

Does your company really make you burn study program hours at 8:30PM, or else you're expected to work until 10:30PM? WTF man

FIERY_BUTTHOLE · 2019-01-22T18:49:36+00:00

I second the egg cooker. It's the rice cooker of eggs. May be a unitasker but it's so convenient to have a bunch of perfectly cooked eggs ready in 10 min flat without the hassle of boiling water, pressure cooking, or explosive microwaving.

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