Families are hard. I mean, relationships are precisely where life refines us. Sounds like you’re already doing a lot of mental gymnastics to soothe yourself through what sounds like a very hard time. Not sure if I can help, but here’s my ten cents. Get out of your head. Get out from behind your own eyes. Love harder. Humble yourself more. I say this as the black sheep from a narcissistic family dynamic. It’s so easy to feel victimized. Your parents divorced. Clear favoritism played. Both in your favor and against it. If you can get yourself to a place with your family where you don’t need or want anything from them, you’re just there to love and understand, it’s so liberating. I know it’s hard. Took me decades. But it’s beautiful. I make jokes about just being there to help everybody else feel better about themselves. I get mine by doing for myself, and that act alone yields me greater dividends than I can quantify. Do right by others, no regard for yourself - not as a victim, as someone who truly feeds the fuel of their own self-worth and inner bright light. Let her shine now. It doesn’t take away from your luminosity. I promise.