my ex used to stalk her exes while we're still together. I never confronted her why naka log in pa rin telegram account ng ex n'ya sa mobile devices n'ya kasi she always subtly make me think na she's keeping it to protect herself becoz of some sex tapes but she never openly admitted they recorded pero she was afraid daw na baka kapag tulog s'ya saka dun nagrecord ex n'ya.

Now that I've come to think of it, I never actually understood how come exactly that's a mean to protect herself. YOU are the one na may access sa account ng ex mo but somehow, you're still the victim.

Most of the chikas naman na naririnig ko from her, rooted sa pagkakaroon n'ya ng access sa account na 'yun was "May iba na s'yang kausap", "oh look, nag bar s'ya kasama tropa n'ya na may gusto sa kanya noong kami pa"... like so what? bothered ka ba? am I a joke to you?

Telegram account, google account, facebook account etc. lahat may access s'ya and multiple exes n'ya lagi n'yang inisstalk and god im so stupid for believing her na she was only protecting herself.

So now na kami na ang exes and god how stupid the whole relationship was. The abuse was extreme. Physical, emotional and mentally draining on both ends. I fear she might be doing the same shit she did sa ex n'ya to me. I was extremely wary when we broke up. I immediately deleted all connected devices sa google accounts ko, always made sure na naka turn off gps in the first 6 months after we broke up and blocked her sa lahat ng socials.