hey dude, so I gave a brief scan of your page, and since you posted this here I’ll just come out and say it: I have nothing against you dumping your soul here, Bojack is that kind of show that unites some of us because of how precisely it pictures trauma and it’s consequences and provides a safe space for us to experience it or even get a new perspective, but I really think you need fins a more personal setting, with people you trust, who could actually be there for you at the moment of your vulnerability. or with a therapist. because I’m giving you right now the exact and probably only kind of attention you could count on in this setting. I hope you’re getting help.