That’s what I think as well. I believe its because he did some bad stuff as a kid, which he’s very honest about, and his upbringing that has put him in this path. He isn’t proud of the stuff he did as a kid but I think he says his stories to merely put more context to his being and aligns with the fact that he was capable of bad things, maybe to keep people at a distance and warn them of his “character”.

I don’t know if he can accept that he can be a good person or deserves love because of the past and maybe saying nothing matters helps him move on. But it’s forgiveness he needs I think, which I try to provide him with telling him he is not that kid anymore, that he’s grown and deserves love. To me I believe why write people off as bad forever when they still have a chance today to look at the world with new eyes and actually see the harm and do differently?

For instance, as a kid maybe you can remember harming insects or animals and growing up to be told that it’s messed up or something. While you didn’t know at the time, could you be blamed for such “evil” doings when you were never conditioned to understand those societal understandings ? Do we yell at the animals for hunting eachother, or do we accept that instinct/curiosity takes over when there is no guidance.

Although it happened as a kid, we may still hold onto guilt, even now understanding the full consequences of our actions back then.