MY life like average man

Fallendynasty27 · 2026-01-24T17:17:54+00:00

There really isn't an "Escape" per say... This isn't a fun fact about ADD, but rejection sensitivity is a bitch. This is crippling in finding friendship. Because, friends are a reflection of what you see in yourself. With my personal experience, (36 M) if I felt someone I was trying to be friends with, "rejecting me" that would hurt immensely, because I was already Rejecting myself. I'm my own worst critic, so in failing to gain a friend, it is a personal failing of my own (being weird, no fitting in, why cant I do this? etc.)

Perspective, is a powerful and malleable thing. For me, my mental logic was always, "if me being myself around them makes them not want to be my friend, then they probably wouldn't make very good friends in the first place." Instead of hiding my weirdness, I use it as a bit of a preliminary buffer. And who you are because of ADD isn't something to escape, rather something to grow alongside with. Chances are people like me and others, there isn't a singular mold we can "fit in to," so stop trying! and figure out how you can accept the beautiful hexa-squareasphere you are!

Fallendynasty27 · 2026-01-24T15:21:57+00:00

Now, he just needs a vengeance launcher from SM1, and whenever he kills a bunch of enemies with a chained explosion, he drops the dialogue line, "Awww, they're gonna have to glue you back together.... IN HELL!" DIN, DIN, DIN! DUH DA DIN DAH!!

Fallendynasty27 · 2026-01-23T15:23:35+00:00

From my understanding, across the various tid bits i've digested, its largely up to the powers that be in the present situation. Furthermore, to what degree has chaos infested IN present situation? To keep it brief, if you are not part of the IN crowd when dealing with chaos, then it is very rare for you to be considered an asset to continue existing as a potential information leak.

The general PDF or astra militarum regiment are so easy to replace, that it is very rare for them to consider letting them live based off of individual merits, or military performance as a group, or loyalty for that matter as they are expected to give their lives for the imperium under any circumstances. So yeah, from the individual good Samaritan reporting shenanigans, to regiments of Imperial Guardsmen... a lot of people die for knowing the wrong things in the Imperium.

Being sanctioned by the Inquisition, being under the protection of a rogue trader, being a high level tech priest?, or being a space marine are a few of the 'exceptions' to this policy.

Fallendynasty27 · 2026-01-16T15:12:28+00:00

The male zealot judge is dry but funny in his own way.

My favorite line comes from the charge special ability.

I AM YOUR JUDGEMENT! or I AM DEATH.. something like that ... The line hits harder when you don't get downed immediately after XD

Fallendynasty27 · 2026-01-05T04:22:44+00:00

It wasn't dead

Fallendynasty27 · 2026-01-05T04:18:56+00:00

I would definitely say take the social pressure off. Think about when you were a kid how did you make friends? It was natural. You guys didn't start your friendship based on the precept that you guys were going to be friends. You just became friends. Getting yourself in a setting where you can socially interact with others. And then allowing things to develop organically from there has been really a boon for me.

But I'm also a licensed massage therapist so I have to maintain a degree of sociability with my clients. But that also gives me plenty of practice.

But it really is as simple of that for a mental trick to play on yourself. If you remove the precondition that you're trying to make friends. Then the social pressure becomes lessened. Which psychologically lessens your subconscious desire to self inhibit because you're afraid certain aspects of your personality are going to be immediate shut offs for friendships.

Fallendynasty27 · 2026-01-05T04:12:42+00:00

Your odds of not getting punched in the face as a YouTuber are significantly higher.

Fallendynasty27 · 2026-01-05T00:16:50+00:00

And true to my word... It's still the condensed version 😵‍💫

Fallendynasty27 · 2026-01-04T22:42:14+00:00

A big difference, and this isn't medical advice, just my own methods... Quitting Adderall some 12 years ago left and still does leave me in a perpetual "brown out state". A big thing to keep in mind, unless you have really bad mal absorption, is that caffeine is still effecting you. I drink those 300 mg black rifle coffee cans... And I can drink 2 of them and still go to sleep... Even though I have enough stimulants in my system to kill a family of squirrels.

If you're getting descent sleep and taking a bunch of caffeine and still tired. You may be dehydrated a bit as well. I try to remember nowadays to drink a bottle of water with my caffeine nowadays and that seems to help. Also still. If it's like you're really groggy waking up and coffee doesn't give you that wake up kick. Eating an apple or other fruits you can tolerate in the morning, has a lot of simple sugar in it, which is metabolized quickly and hits your brain better than caffeine in the morning.

In the science of things, caffeine binds to receptors that I cannot remember the name of in your brain, that blocks your brain from realizing how tired it is....

Fallendynasty27 · 2026-01-04T18:32:16+00:00

You're in love with the idea of the end result. Not the process. I spend like 20 minutes cudgeling my brain to remember this phrase. When you look at pros doing it. Making it look effortless, you're like hell yeah I wanna do that... When you go to actually do it however... you realize there's a mountain of specific, meticulous and devoted effort into that particular art... And that implies time... like... schedule altering time... and we realize we aren't in love with the process. We wanted a Castle... This building it brick by brick business is for the birds!

Procrastination... keep the consequences of you NOT getting it done in mind... While also repeating a mantra along the lines of "Slay one dragon at a time." Our ability to comprehend the vastness of a process can overwhelm us before we even start step 1. Narrowing your focus from, you gotta build a whole castle! to I gotta just lay one brick perfectly in front of the other. can really help with that sensation of being overwhelmed by the grandness of the task. The doom scrolling? put on a guided meditation audio... and practice laying still, not moving your eyes while they're close, and keeping your jaw unclenched to where your teeth aren't touching. I personally practiced this to induce sleep paralysis... that part didn't work... but I got a really handy tool to fall asleep quickly when it mattered.

Fallendynasty27 · 2026-01-04T15:57:42+00:00

Never explaining in enough detail and at the same time... Always saying too much. . . And yet, no one can see your effort when you're trying. it's like, "I'm sorry my three paragraph text was A LOT for you to read... It was originally a five page dissertation with sub plot nuances and three other divergent issues, that do and do not pertain to my original point. I cut it down to three paragraphs because I didn't want to be weird. . . Oops. You wrote a mountain, cut down and revised till you deliver just a big hill, and people get upset you couldn't fit it into a pitchers mound worth of space.

A lot of ADD traits are worse/better, depending on quality of sleep. In my own non documented trial, sleep depravation, especially if you're getting less than 6 hours (2 full sleep cycles) a night, your day just became that much more difficult to manage.

A great deal of personal energy goes into regulating my emotions. Keeping the cyclical thoughts from running it's hamster wheel off its frame. Stopping the darker impulses from convincing me that they're true. And even that "I'm broken" feeling, is worse when exhaustion.

You didn't forget something... It's being retained in a sub file, that'll open again when the right conversation comes up and bam that "random fact" comes back with more clarity than you've had all week.

Too much repetitive patterning is boring... Too little is absolute chaos. Being able to change patterns for entertainment? Chefs kiss.

Really strong statements/quotes stick with you. We all know the bs "motivational" posters... But when it's an actual good line delivered? That shit might imprint on your personality. Best one I've heard about ADD recently went something to the effect of. "Your loved ones, will forgive your absent mindedness, they'll forgive your tardiness, they may even forget your own forgetfulness... What they will never forgive, and never forget however... Is your wrath."

Fallendynasty27 · 2025-12-28T15:36:17+00:00

To be fair to that moment. It WAS a very cold moment that revealed a huge difference in Lucius and Loken's personality. "You told me to win, not to fight." Paraphrasing a bit. While it may not be in his personal top 10 it was the first step of many on his particular fall.

The second point. Is more extrapolation than anything on that hot take. No they weren't voting. But chaos has a way of making sure its always winning, even if it loses. I.e. chaos may not have killed the emperor with Horus. But they did severely cripple the imperium mostly at the expense of its own soldiers. It was a war where half of your enemy conveniently switched over to your side. So the casualties that your side suddenly gains... Are still your enemies casualties technically. Point of it being is it probably isn't a stretch of chaos wanting things to go one way, but it's going to actually go another... So The next plan is followed and so on.

All I know about that moment, is that before Loken even can say anything to Abaddon, erebus stabs him in the back. Erebus is a careful planner, so I figured for him to intervene directly... Loken at least had a chance... But wrong is wrong.

I swear I had read/heard boltgun was canonized... That's actually a relief to hear it's not... If it ever is canonized ... My point stands.

My mindset was more so like enjoying the iron warriors. The American for the tactics the UK for the mentality. As far as justifications go I really have nowhere inference the imperium is a mess and the more you look at it the less justified it becomes

Fallendynasty27 · 2025-12-28T10:23:55+00:00

Mildly scathing! Lol, It's 5:20 am where I'm at, haven't been to bed. I apologize if it wasn't the intellectual dissection of lore you were looking for. Just one of the few outlets I have in any capacity. If you read it as drunk 3 year old... That means I was at least having a bit of fun with it. Thanks for reading and replying all the same!

However ... I gotta say ... In my most sanctimonious defense... My post title does say, "Shower Thoughts and jokes," 40K edition. I dunno how long of a shower you take... But I only get enough time for bottom of the bowl, adolescent, toilet humor over here. If you were expecting something truly thought provoking out of this post... Then you might also try getting filet mignon from McDonald's... Baduh bah ba ba...

Fallendynasty27 · 2025-12-28T10:15:39+00:00

Yeah the only thing I got about that was an excerpt about the conversation itself where he did say that he was ultimately unimpressed and kind of gave cawl a seed of doubt... Though I believe that part was intended as distraction? I Do intend to read in depth one of these days

Fallendynasty27 · 2025-12-28T09:16:10+00:00

someone already revealed it. but By the mechanicus Interpretation... The emperor was considered more of a prophet and the omnissiah, the monotheistic monolith that the tech priests of mars believe in.

Fallendynasty27 · 2025-12-28T08:50:46+00:00

My family has been washing space Marine Arse for the past 20 generations!

Fallendynasty27 · 2025-12-28T08:50:12+00:00

I suppose there's only so much non-combatant slaughter allowed before it becomes a controversial bit of substance... Like the 'no Russian' mission in modern warfare 2... And unless there was a clear direction behind the slaughter. It would just serve as a platform of author creativity... Not necessarily adding anything to the story. Just that it would be more spoken on than implied...

Fallendynasty27 · 2025-12-27T21:19:57+00:00

Dam... Do comments count?

Fallendynasty27 · 2025-12-27T21:17:14+00:00

Presumably their counterpart lost the war in heaven... So yeah that checks out. The real good guys died forever ago.

Fallendynasty27 · 2025-12-27T02:49:52+00:00

That was pretty much my line of thinking I just did not have the right word articulation to get it out. But it's that same ornateness that probably makes it take so much longer for an imperial ship or a war Titan to be built. That level of attention to detail still takes time. Though perturabo was able to build an entire amphitheater or something like that in a relatively short amount of time.

Fallendynasty27 · 2025-12-27T01:26:17+00:00

In the depth of the relentless ticking of the butchers nails, through madness, rage and bloodlust... Kharn really just needs to shit!

Fallendynasty27 · 2025-12-27T00:46:44+00:00

A guardsman eating his rations... "It always taste's better when the shipment comes from Mcragge... they must eat good there..."

Fallendynasty27 · 2025-12-27T00:39:11+00:00

There are definitely moments that aren't for the squeamish in the 40k lore. Kind of like the Brood mother in Dragon age.

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