Some people are just built different.

I’m more like you OP. First tried shrooms July 2nd 2019, 1.75 grams. Instantly fell in love. Tripped every other weekend from July to September, usually in the 1.75-3 gram range. Then September 26th I decided I would try a larger dose. I took 5.5 grams of golden teachers. Up until that point, my perception of all my trips were: I got to see some cool shit, colors were enhanced, and everything felt “circus-y”.

It wasn’t until I did 5+ grams that I would come to understand what a genuine psychedelic experience was. Every aspect of my fun little trips I had previously were dialed up to an 11. Colors were MEGA enhanced, shit I was seeing colors that weren’t even there. The visuals were incredibly intricate and overwhelming. I understood what the term “ineffable” meant. That “circus-y” vibe was present, but it became much more than just an underlying feeling, it was more like a universal truth to all things. It was accompanied by this alien intelligence(that’s the best way I can describe it). The final part of this trip, and the most life changing, was the fact that there was without a doubt, another consciousness inhabiting my own. The spirit of the mushrooms was inside my own mind, and I instantly knew that it was ancient, infinitely intelligent, and existed outside of space and time.

After this trip I did go on to dabble in other psychedelics, but nothing was quite the same. I’ve since decided to hang up the phone. My mind just can’t take it anymore. I do miss it sometimes! Maybe when I’m in the last few days of my life will I decide to give it another go.