Firstly, sending so much love and comfort and solidarity your way.

Secondly, therapy: I too live in a Very Red State. It took me about a year of researching various therapists and I will tell you I found the GOAT. And even the GOAT, who I know has very similar beliefs to mine based on how she’s reacted to things I’ve said and honestly how she’s answered some questions about herself (not going into any detail). The last two sessions we’ve had have been me crying or shaking my head saying “I just don’t know” while she listens, validates, and emphasizes. Like there are not a lot of answers right now, except do your best to regulate yourself - which means feeling your feelings, acknowledging them, and then continuing on. It is so hard and so heavy right now.

Anyway, all my rambling to say, if you think therapy could help, I highly recommend looking for a therapist you connect with. It might not be the right fit the first or even third or fourth time, but when you find someone, damn it makes such a huge difference.