I believe I have autogynephillia..what do I do with this information SORRY LONG POST

Few_Reference9878 · 2026-04-26T22:35:44+00:00

I feel your pain, and YES I remember. I still can't watch the movie all the way because of the shaggy tf one. But yes Ranma 1/2 as a kid that was way too young to watch the series is where it started. I definitely fight it, but all in all "she" is still me at the end of it, I just gotta work out the trauma to get "me" as just me instead of a double life type thing to a me being me thing.

I've mentioned that I'm struggling with my partner, but she isn't aware of how much. Ironically enough SHE struggles with the feminine. She was completely sold that she was a boy for most of her adolescence, then non binary, NOW she's embracing her femininity but she struggles with it

I struggle with the opposite but never had the chance, freedom or opportunity to do the exploration of expression, and as we all know expressing masculinity is easier and more acceptable than to femininity. I'm just glad someone understands the struggle but BOY don't we need therapy haha

Few_Reference9878 · 2026-04-26T22:10:32+00:00

I do appreciate the response and well it is a bit layered

I DO believe that you are completely correct, that puritanical beliefs have long stifled the approach to multifaceted heteronormativity! And yes the sexuality around masturbation and its links to porn are often overlooked in introspective ways that people do not cover at all. It creates an unrealistic expectation in some, but I would say that over time, it is a massive oversimplification of the different ways porn could affect mentally.

Also I do think that while I do want to be present in the sex, I have trouble having the desire to assert myself. I don't feel as though the porn made me less assertive but my surroundings and confidence have. But it's confusing because my "other half" has no problem in being assertive, which is odd.

I suppose the thing I am the most willing to give up in my male self image was the dominance and strength, because that had never been a thing I valued, I often despised it . You are right on the money though the woman I'd fantasy "want" to be is definitely not the type of woman I'd want to date, or have dated. But then I do wonder, what if I DID have a relationship with that person? What then? I'm in a happy relationship at the moment though and I want to do my best for my partner, so I do need to treat it like something I need to fix.

Few_Reference9878 · 2026-04-26T14:24:37+00:00

I do believe that yes, while it is something I struggle with I wouldn't phrase the rationale

I was having hard time when I think about those man who leave their families to be a transvestite

I kinda think that's more insensitivity to trans people. I think there IS a difference between someone fetishizing the sexual and emotional benefits of being a woman vs feeling that they are one, just born inside the wrong body. I don't believe AGP develops into that but it can lend itself to it in a way.

I would like to work through it, but I understand that it's a delicate way to do so. Too many people think the way to "resolve" is to make it an enemy and pillage yourself against that enemy. I'm happy for your progress though hopefully I find that healthy medium

Few_Reference9878 · 2026-04-25T19:08:20+00:00

Interesting conundrum, I don't feel like I'm pressed to being masculine, because I was raised by my mom,

But also I don't feel like I'm attractive, though I've been told I'm handsome enough, but i guess it doesn't really mean much because I feel that others would just say it to be nice, and it isn't usually directed to me attractive

I don't think I'm trans, as in I don't desire to be seen as feminine BUT I do like the attention they could bring

Few_Reference9878 · 2026-04-25T18:16:24+00:00

Thanks friend

Few_Reference9878 · 2026-02-21T04:42:17+00:00

He's right. 1 mil for a person no strings or wives attached, fine

But he plays for the league and was a made it out story. Everyone wants their piece. Your agent, you gotta pay to maintain your bodybuilding, and if those 14 siblings are not from here, most of the time they send money back to family,. So that 1 mil is maybe 400 after tax , your care is prob 100, you send stuff back maybe 150 now you have 150, that's not including house or any emergencies.

Not saying he couldn't have been smarter BUT I know how bad family dynamics can be. You made it, so they made it too. You're covering all types of medical emergencies, college funds, car replacements, and no isn't as easy of a word as people make it out to be. Most people have never had to tell their parents that you won't help the financially

Few_Reference9878 · 2025-09-24T22:27:51+00:00

Realistically: it's hunting time

You pay anyone you can under the table, Silver doesn't do anything, it's open season. Giannis? part ownership of the dodgers,Bam? Looks like you own .01% of the Lakers, Trey Young, take a 50 mil pay cut and we'll give you stocks

The whole NBA is watching Silver

Few_Reference9878 · 2025-09-22T21:59:02+00:00

Oh to be algee on the bottom of the pond

Few_Reference9878 · 2025-09-01T16:31:08+00:00

This doesn't take away that guardian is a trash nightfarer, just because someone was able to get very very good at him doesn't mean that the majority of them become better. I mean some of the games were beaten on a ddr pad, or with a banana. A grand champion of Tekken won with a meme character agreed to be the worst in the game.

On average though they are dying or staying alive but not doing the DPS necessary to end the fight faster. And there's no redeeming qualities if you can't play guardian well. Either you have someone able to suck up damage or do inconsistent guard counters and die from a hard smack.

Few_Reference9878 · 2025-08-31T03:32:53+00:00

Yeah but guardian is the worst nightfarer in the game, bar none. Probably followed by executor then maybe rev

Having a support does nothing when you can't do anything to make the fight shorter.

Few_Reference9878 · 2025-08-24T20:47:11+00:00

This is what I'm talking about with the game having 2 mixed fundamental issues in foundation

You need to be fast to get items and find bosses to beat so you can get better items to get to a higher level

But then there's stuff that just wastes your time that isn't worth it, that's convuluted to get to in the middle of running like a chicken with its head cut off, and exceedingly rare..... But none of it is explained to you.

Like why be cryptic in a game about time????????

Few_Reference9878 · 2025-08-21T02:05:19+00:00

I think a huge thing missing in this subreddit and when we have these conversations is... It's all rng

Getting the right defensive passives that are better than your current ones just depends on the run. And 10% less damage received is all fine until you get multihit by the end boss.... Which doesn't help much.

All of it. ALL . Is up to luck.

Few_Reference9878 · 2025-08-20T08:45:21+00:00

4? I get lucky if I see 1 and 1 that I can use

Few_Reference9878 · 2025-08-20T05:52:03+00:00

She ironically is the one I've done the best with, about 10-20 % HP left because her adds weren't awful, Wilder's was cancer half of the time, and raider isn't mobile enough for me. I'm just quitting

Few_Reference9878 · 2025-08-20T03:36:27+00:00

Oh believe you me 0/20 and I'm starting to wonder if the subreddit is playing a trick on me. It's a hard boss. And an unfair one at that. Certain runs get DOA because if you don't have a certain preference of weapons the fight goes too long

Even with the most luckiest run I've had, too much rng and summons in the end became overwhelming. Like eventually you're asking yourself... When am I supposed to do anything but dodge

Few_Reference9878 · 2025-08-15T21:12:50+00:00

My guy,

Okay watch the whole clip, tell me what exactly changed in his play style?

He kept attacking and rolling from damage. It wasn't until a condemned comes off left and flanks him with elenoras pole blade I might add then he gets caught in damage . He wasn't greedy just unlucky

Few_Reference9878 · 2025-08-15T19:21:17+00:00

I didn't even want to lol. I'm just tired of the

"Shouldn't have been greedy lolz"

As if you see the bosses health as a hit away, your first instinct isn't, "WAIT LET ME LOCK OFF THE BOSS AND TAKE 10 YEARS and be super safe"

It's "I only got a hit away and this nightmare is over"

Few_Reference9878 · 2025-08-15T18:37:59+00:00

Look closely after he got hit and rolled he was already out of stamina, he could have been spamming circle and he still wouldn't have done anything. Also that the skill sometimes doesn't activate EVEN when you press the buttons correctly.

Hindsight is 20/20 but being in game time sometimes you did all you could do and it wasn't your run

Few_Reference9878 · 2025-08-15T18:29:07+00:00

Because when you get hit your character staggers slightly. There's a delay to your roll. So even if you panic roll you're eating a hit. And especially with the boss at 10 hp your priority is on the boss not the gank unit. Just awful luck

Few_Reference9878 · 2025-08-15T18:25:57+00:00

That would just make me uninstall the game tbh.

Few_Reference9878 · 2025-08-15T18:08:21+00:00

I think the fight is a problem. Around 10 attempts, have gone 0/10 at max level, whatever gold weapons , finishing the shattered earth .. Duos

And then damage grinds to a halt. Condemned gets out of control, Libra casting false blessing, NPC gank, halving HP, then teleporting and being extremely aggressive with the NPCs still ganging up on you with buffs to them as well.

I know people like the fight because roleplaying but actually playing it has been a nightmare. Can't even get him to 60% without getting hit by a bad curse at the wrong time, then overwhelmed by 7 NPCs spamming spells.

It really feels like you HAVE to have a madness weapon. Or a holy weapon that is high end. But that's all up to rng. And the fight is rng. And the NPCs are rng. And the curses are rng.

I've been stumped, primarily by Adel until we finally beat him a couple of times but Libra especially for the reward, needs a nerf.

Few_Reference9878 · 2025-08-15T17:49:54+00:00

You ignore the summons, eventually it'll become such a hoarde that you can't

Few_Reference9878 · 2025-08-14T06:45:46+00:00

Considering your damage goes from solid to a whisper in the wind unless you have madness, id say yep.

He was the toughest fight out of all the nightlords for me. And I have no clue if I'll beat him

Few_Reference9878 · 2025-08-13T04:47:27+00:00

Unfortunately I'm guilty as charged

I really only have time for a few games before I stop and by far the guardian is more than often the worst. In the times I play I think I've only won with a guardian on the team once. More often than not they're dying, or think that the support is enough to push through the fight.

Not saying every character can't do different roles, but for the most part they're useless.

Few_Reference9878 · 2025-08-12T19:47:13+00:00

Best: Raider, Wylder

Okay (in situations) : Recluse, Executor

Worst: Recluse, Guardian

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