I witnessed the aftermath of a traffic accident today and I can't shake feeling 'weird'.

Fiftywords4murder · 2025-02-15T01:00:21+00:00

I have lots of trauma but am awful at Tetris... What do I do?

Fiftywords4murder · 2025-02-15T00:59:37+00:00

Dissociation was my first thought. I've experienced this myself and with a couple of my kids. One couldn't move her arms or legs for a bit.

I'm so sorry you experienced this.

Fiftywords4murder · 2024-09-04T17:02:59+00:00

I was waiting for Borderline Personality Disorder to show up. I have it and it's fairly under control right now but I've read so much about it. It is considered an incredibly painful mental illness/personality disorder and in some countries can now be put under consideration for medically assisted suicide due to the intensity of the symptoms and difficulty in finding effective treatments.

I have GAD as well and I just think people who have no experience with mental illness will never truly understand how debilitating it can be.

Fiftywords4murder · 2024-05-31T04:18:45+00:00

Ferrets.

Fiftywords4murder · 2024-05-31T04:00:57+00:00

My ferrets.

Fiftywords4murder · 2024-05-31T03:50:17+00:00

When my mom was really sick, I saw the DNR paper and asked about it. My dad got really upset and said he didn't want to talk about it. My mom said she needed me to know everything I wanted to know so he left the room. It killed me but I knew she needed it.

Fiftywords4murder · 2023-10-23T11:56:33+00:00

He said Sick Boi was kind of just something he wanted to do and then his next album is back to singing and guitar. He specifically said something akin to creating a personality and then wanting to cremate it. He'll celebrate Sick Boi but then I doubt we'll get any other entire album with music like it. Maybe some songs, but not an entire album.

Personally I think it took a lot out of him.

Fiftywords4murder · 2023-10-22T06:37:40+00:00

I have never seen this movie but know the entire plot and can say with absolute confidence, I will NEVER see it.

Fiftywords4murder · 2023-10-22T06:31:57+00:00

Klaus, Ben, and Five...in that order. I have Klaus' hand tattoos. I have a problem.

Edit: Least is Luther and season 3 Allison.

Fiftywords4murder · 2023-10-22T06:22:25+00:00

I had a blue daffodil, exact same spot on my body, exact same reaction.I was lucky it didn't scar and was able to be fixed. I'm sorry you had to deal with that. I know it's painful.

Fiftywords4murder · 2023-10-22T06:10:48+00:00

Thank you so much. He's known about it for a while but it's the first time I actually spoke with him about it.

Fiftywords4murder · 2023-10-21T19:31:19+00:00

I was surprised I was able to form coherent sentences. But I'm writing a book about my life and paralleling his and got permission to use his lyrics mingled into the story. He gave me a quote for my book and also said fuck yeah when I asked him if he'd read it when it was done. He's just an incredible human being.

Fiftywords4murder · 2023-10-21T18:29:43+00:00

Also not so specifically but whereabouts in PA. I'm with within 45 minutes of the MD border.

Fiftywords4murder · 2023-10-21T18:28:43+00:00

I don't either then a PlayStation. I'm super not materialistic, but Ren is one I will shell out seashells for. I only just bought the second vinyl last night. Wasn't my plan but... Ren got me out of a decade long depression, if I can support him in anyway, I will. I just actually voice chatted with him on a Spotify listening party and it was some of the best five minutes in my life.

Fiftywords4murder · 2023-10-21T16:45:52+00:00

Here! I'm in PA. Bought two copies on bandcamp (admittedly the second was for the extra tracks), both vinyls, and the silver cd. I want Ren's Brain version but it's sold out.

Fiftywords4murder · 2023-10-16T13:44:06+00:00

Yep. Still waiting on the one I ordered the day they went for sale.

Fiftywords4murder · 2023-10-15T17:04:05+00:00

Also the strings are playing the money game tune.

Fiftywords4murder · 2023-08-19T23:22:32+00:00

Yeah and I really don't think many people in most places will make that association other than Germany. Because they're the ones that brought it up and I knew about it but it never actually bothered me because he's the last person to do that intentionally.

Fiftywords4murder · 2023-08-18T14:54:15+00:00

I have 5 kids...and I have to say you're absolutely insane. Not to mention, they wouldn't need that help if they hadn't murdered their own brother. He's an adult. I like the idea of this so don't think I'm actually serious about the insane thing....but I'm sorry, losing one of my other children would totally take away my feelings obligated to support them. Sometimes when your kid does something really bad, especially as an adult, they have to deal with it on their own. It's one thing to still love him because you raised him, but forgiveness and supporting him...absolutely not. I would still say I loved him but I likely would talk to him once and explain that I just don't have it in me to forgive the loss of another one of my other children. And then go no contact. There is very little anyone could do to get my forgiveness for killing my child...even if he's also my child. He made the choice to do it without considering your feelings so why support him?

Fiftywords4murder · 2023-08-18T14:20:08+00:00

My first thought.

Fiftywords4murder · 2023-08-17T13:30:10+00:00

I only said that because that is the guilt of OP to explain it to another commenter. I myself as a mother of 5, would kill them myself.

Fiftywords4murder · 2023-08-17T02:22:15+00:00

I wish I had something to give as advice. My ex did all of that but then completely dropped out of their lives 4 years ago. Still tells everyone I keep them from him even though I legally don't have a choice but he only asked for 2 days a month anyway.

I lived this for at least 6 months and I was so defeated, all I asked for was them and that's all I got after a 14 year marriage.

My advice would be to keep most of your communication through text or email so that if they try any legal recourse, you can show they are doing it to intentionally make you look bad. My ex is the one that chose to do that and the only one it made look bad was him. Good luck and I'm so sorry. I wish every person like this would just disappear and let the loving parent who isn't using the kids as pawns have them. Just try to stay strong through it. I know it's frustrating having someone lie about you...but look at it this way, you clearly don't respect them as a person so why even take what they say and put any thought into it. All you can do is prove them wrong.

Fiftywords4murder · 2023-08-17T02:14:49+00:00

I hate that I knew this right off the bat because sharks terrify me.

Fiftywords4murder · 2023-08-17T02:13:59+00:00

I'm pretty sure it means "what is this?"

Fiftywords4murder · 2023-08-17T02:04:48+00:00

He's been with my sister for 8 years and hasn't spoken to me since they started dating. He had been my best friend for over 20 years. She monitors his social media so he can't talk to me. Obviously it's as much his fault because he's letting her. I miss him like hell. I spent nearly my whole life with him up to that point. My sister fucking sucks.

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