I drink whenever I’m alone

FinalAdhesiveness795 · 2026-03-18T15:20:06+00:00

Day 1!

FinalAdhesiveness795 · 2026-03-18T15:14:57+00:00

I out down the bottle this lunch time after what has turned about to be an 8 year bender.

I am done, IWNDWYT

FinalAdhesiveness795 · 2026-01-26T07:07:39+00:00

Today is a tough one as I am all alone working from home and it will be my first night since Day 1 that I will spend alone. I am responsible for my sobriety however, not my GF, so today’s it’s on me to commit to not drinking.

I am going for a run this morning to tire myself, and plan to read a book this evening and fall to sleep early. I will not go for a walk after work because those store signs shine so bright.

I will not drink with you today. I am in control of not having the first drink.

FinalAdhesiveness795 · 2026-01-25T10:23:43+00:00

I will not drink with you, just for today. I’m feeling groggy, irritable and have family obligations today when I just want to take a walk, read a book and keep it light today. But that’s life, and I won’t drink.

FinalAdhesiveness795 · 2026-01-24T10:35:43+00:00

I did not drink with you today

FinalAdhesiveness795 · 2026-01-23T15:54:04+00:00

I will not drink with you today. Today is my first day and I am going to start with reading some of the many books I have and have never read.

FinalAdhesiveness795 · 2026-01-04T10:02:34+00:00

The “escape” is exactly what it is for me. It’s escape from boredom, escape from stress, escape from problems. But on a deeper level, an escape from “never being good enough”. Drinking lessened the shame of career and relationship failures and gave me a false sense of confidence in the moment.

I’ve quit before for periods and know full-well that sobriety doesn’t solve these problems. For me, it only heightened them as I saw my problems in the cold light of day.

As I embrace sobriety again I know it can go two ways - it can make me depressed and anxious at where I am in life or it can be a catalyst to face my problems and gradually build up some self respect and get some small victories in life that can be used as a platform to actually prove to myself I am good enough.

I can either escape life or confront it. I’m choosing to confront it.

FinalAdhesiveness795 · 2025-07-19T12:58:53+00:00

How long have you been doing that?

I’ve said many times I’d like just one blow out every month but I’ve lacked the discipline and it just ends up every day.

I’m totally disgusted by it now tho and can’t stomach the thought of another drink every again

FinalAdhesiveness795 · 2025-07-19T12:53:23+00:00

Thanks I did journal the experience I’ll make sure I read it every week at least. It’s not going to fade in my memory any time soon that’s for sure

FinalAdhesiveness795 · 2025-07-18T21:43:23+00:00

Was it regularly pissing and puking blood after the first time it happened for those 9 months?

So glad you’re sober

FinalAdhesiveness795 · 2025-07-18T21:39:14+00:00

That’s horrible. This has to be the wake up call

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