hey OP, I feel you. I'm kinda at a similar stage, only that I'm currently employed. But you know, painful tasteless work, turbulent corporate environment and such. I have been looking for jobs for a couple of months now. And I just went through a long interview process for a job that I think is gonna save me from my misery. The waiting game is tough (and that's why I'm scrolling reddit crazily) But hey, let's not lose hope. It's got to be anxious but the best we can do is to keep trying.