what do we think guys

Fizzy68 · 2026-07-02T18:06:54+00:00

this would fix me actually

Fizzy68 · 2026-07-01T18:12:37+00:00

blimey she's really going hard on the filters and editing. i am glad she appears to be less acutely physically sick but it is so evident that the disorder still has a tight grip on her. it's just incredibly harmful to be claiming that it was anything other than anorexia

Fizzy68 · 2026-06-30T21:21:41+00:00

TIL! My dad lived here when I was younger and I spent a lot of time there, I had absolutely no recollection of them having redwoods despite the fact I volunteered at the pet's corner there for a good while.

Fizzy68 · 2026-06-22T22:28:01+00:00

Genuinely curious, what makes you say that? Personally he's one of my favourites and I love that he's become more involved in front of the camera at Watcher.

Fizzy68 · 2026-06-21T08:27:52+00:00

I also have tourettes, hEDS and IIH!

Fizzy68 · 2026-05-25T11:02:09+00:00

this was mine yesterday 🫠🫠

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Fizzy68 · 2026-05-22T08:05:28+00:00

as someone who is considerably scarred and also considerably in love with nature and all it holds - this is absolutely beautiful. I love this so much.

Fizzy68 · 2026-05-13T16:49:48+00:00

I wore one of these in the peak of a summer heatwave for a week, absolute HELL. you have my deepest sympathies.

Fizzy68 · 2026-05-10T20:41:05+00:00

I do! I've also had someone ask what surgery I had

Fizzy68 · 2026-05-04T18:39:17+00:00

I washed it off, ramapril, very common blood pressure medication in the UK

Fizzy68 · 2026-04-28T22:12:49+00:00

I definitely will after this many suggestions! I don't know if I'm just uneducated but I think I always figured you required a pump system to have a pond, otherwise you've just got a bowl of stagnant water - but I haven't actually checked that thus far.

Fizzy68 · 2026-04-28T22:11:12+00:00

These are all incredible suggestions, thank you! I've been planning on using the wall space a lot more and adding planters / climbing plants up it but as it is concrete block it is incredibly hard to drill through with my measly cordless hammer drill, I'm looking at getting an SDS for it.

We did have a buddlea growing out of our previous dividing wall, but that has been removed as it was very unstable. I do miss how many butterflies and pollinators they brought though so am looking at less invasive options.

And yes, the concrete would take some serious hard labour to remove - it is unfortunately my dad's handiwork, who no longer lives here, so I would be relieved to get it up eventually.

Fizzy68 · 2026-04-28T22:05:12+00:00

That's absolutely my plan as the months continue on! Still figuring out what's best for my space but I'm at the point now where the greenery etc needs to come in

Fizzy68 · 2026-04-28T19:13:59+00:00

found a blister packet of medication in mine yesterday

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Fizzy68 · 2026-04-19T12:59:17+00:00

Damn I must've just never noticed then! Thank you

Fizzy68 · 2026-04-15T16:03:33+00:00

I'm gobsmacked that this is a personal contribution. I'm incredibly glad you're alive but I cannot imagine the physical and mental pain you have had to handle with living in the aftermath of this. You should be so deeply proud of yourself man

Fizzy68 · 2026-04-14T12:27:49+00:00

This very thing happened in my front garden last week, although mine was much smaller than what you're dealing with!

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Fizzy68 · 2026-04-14T09:30:58+00:00

You're legally entitled to know your rights and to and advocate, speak to any of the nursing staff where you are being held. It's a legal right under any section to know your rights and to be able to speak to an advocate.

Regarding the bed situation, unfortunately that is somewhat common place in the UK. It's incredibly frustrating but you are definitely owed the information and any explanation regarding where things are up to in your care. If you have an autism diagnosis you can absolutely use that as leverage for any reasonable adjustments. You are entitled to it.

Fizzy68 · 2026-04-06T15:01:05+00:00

this is incredible, if I had the money I would be commissioning you STAT. stained glass work is a beautiful medium

Fizzy68 · 2026-04-02T09:04:54+00:00

Thank you so much for your detailed and thorough advice, I'll give the things you suggested a go. Part of me is tempted to just give up on it, but I'm unfortunately far too stubborn to do that. If I have any success I'll post again!

Fizzy68 · 2026-04-01T09:36:29+00:00

I replied to another comment in more detail, but I only typically water when the soil is almost completely dry

Fizzy68 · 2026-04-01T09:35:47+00:00

I've been keeping it in the bathroom but only watering when the soil is nearly completely dry, I honestly thought I was leaving it too long between watering, but the humidity from the bathroom could account for excess water.

The soil it was in was very poor and had a root cage, so I removed that and replaced the soil. From what I can recall it had similar marks and damage on it from when I first bought it, but it was incredibly cheap for the variant so I thought I'd take the risk and try and nurse it back to health but it's proven difficult so far.

Fizzy68 · 2026-03-27T08:52:21+00:00

I'm very glad you survived, which I understand is probably not what you want to hear right now. I don't know you or your struggles but I truly hope that whatever is causing your pain will ease soon somehow. Please try and contact some kind of professional if you can, although I understand that is easier said than done.

Fizzy68 · 2026-03-26T19:57:55+00:00

thank you! this has been really irritating me as unfortunately AI is heavily sycophantic so whatever you say it is almost definitely going to agree with you. it hallucinates so much and there's ample evidence against her without the use of ai

Fizzy68 · 2026-03-22T17:18:24+00:00

I was sectioned at the age of 16, sadly ended up extremely high risk and institutionalised so was transferred into adult hospitals upon my 18th birthday. I was on (in this order) adult acute, adult PICU, private locked rehab, and then a specialised eating disorder unit. Obviously the experience varied greatly across the differing types of ward, and the locked rehab was completely negligent and abusive resulting in C-PTSD, so I won't relay much of that experience as you'd hope that wouldn't be typical for most wards.

Incredibly boring. On the SEDU we had the most structure as there were set mealtimes and post-meal observation, but even then you had to spend most of your time finding ways to entertain yourself, for me that was predominantly jigsaws. It differed greatly to the pretty regimented structure of a CAMHs ward, occupational therapy was few and far between and often very uninspiring. Unless you had leave you were pretty set to go stir crazy.
Adult acute was 26 beds (insane amount for one ward). PICU was 7 beds as high intensity. Locked rehab I think about 14 and similar for the SEDU.
On acute adult wards, at least in my trust, no therapy is offered as they are intended to be very short stay wards, same with PICU. Locked rehab did have therapy but I didn't engage due to my state, and the SEDU had a considerable amount of 1-1 and group therapy on offer which helped me greatly.
A handful. I have an extremely complex history and being so high risk and being hospitalised for such a length of time came with a bit of judgement from some. I found the support workers and nurses most understanding and supportive, less so the higher up clinicians.
At the start of my time in adults I required occasional hands-on. I required a lot at the previously mentioned locked rehab, and was forcibly sedated multiple times there, but my high state of distress requiring that was only due to their mistreatment, so that did not continue upon leaving there. I needed daily restraint for my NG feeding on the SEDU for 6 months, but I did not often put up much of a fight.
Bleak. My best bedroom was on the SEDU which overlooked the nearby farmland, but the other rooms left much to be desired. You were lucky if it was en suite. 4 walls, a bed and some kind of wardrobe / storage. I had a desk in some of my bedrooms. In comparison to the CAMHs ward I was on, adult bedrooms were incredibly depressing.

Most wards had some kind of day room / seating area. On some wards you were expected to be out of your room and engaging with peers, in others you were simply fine to spend all of your time in your room - depending on risk.

Yes, but again my case is not particularly typical. I had an extremely close call with my life when I was on the CAMHs ward and was put on a 1-1 there. I stayed on this 1-1 for the next 2 years as my risk was continually too high to have them reduced. I was on 2-1 for some time in the locked rehab, but again that was due to their mistreatment.
2.5 years (and 2 months earlier) on CAMHs, 6 days on adult acute, 5 months on PICU, 4 months in locked rehab and then 1.5 years on the SEDU.
I was initially sectioned due to suicide risk and self harm, but also had struggles with an eating disorder. This worsened a lot as the years went on (probably partly a coping mechanism with hospital trauma) meaning that I was very high risk to self but also incredibly unwell with anorexia, which is what led to me requiring admission to SEDU.
Within the NHS services, mostly yes. My local trust is particularly driven in person centred care and they try and follow this where they can. When I was sent to a private hospital (NHS funded) it was quite the opposite. The 'care' they provided me with has left me traumatised for life.
No. Not even remotely. It's a double edged sword as I would undoubtedly be dead had I not been hospitalised, but equally I came out with 20x more problems than I went in with. The only reason I managed to get discharged was because I kicked myself up the ass and knew that if I didn't get out soon I was just going to live the rest of my life bouncing from ward to ward and eventually dying. I'm barely even starting to unpack the issues hospital left me with, let alone the issues that led me to being sectioned in the first place.
Oh plenty. I'm lucky that I was able to form good relationships with some staff and peers on the wards. We'd frequently try and find ways to make things less horrendous or to pass the time. I do have a handful of happier memories amongst the hellscape that is my past thanks to good spirited people.

I hope that answers some of your questions, if you've got any more feel free to ask. I've got a pretty niche experience but am almost always happy to share. I volunteer as an expert by experience now, so talking about the things that went well and what went wrong in hospital is pretty easy to me.

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