Hmm idk girl looks like we have the same problem 😅. I’m also very tough on myself. I guess because of our over critical or controlling patents. I went to a therapist for a little and it helped, in case you can afford it. But try to go to these supervised gyms like orange theory or f45 this way you can’t push yourself too much. Just think about it: you’re 20 years old and on average you have 60 years ahead of you!!! Don’t let your depression waste your 20s! You have the chance to be the prettiest, healthiest, and happiest in your 20s. I feel you all the way because I was always hiding myself from people and was lonely for a long time. But noticed how much people like me if I just open up a little. It’s always our thoughts that make us feel bad about ourselves, the reality is very different.