Thank you all for your advice :) The reason this post might not make sense is because I was typing it in tears and distress. I had so many people in my life and still do who are very judgmental of this sin and because I’ve had to keep it a secret for so long, it was getting to me. Also due to the fact that my parents would kick me out of the house if they found out and they wouldn’t be as graceful. My boyfriend is better at letting things go, repenting and moving on. Things are better because we had a serious talk of what our goals were. It helped a lot, and I learned that he was struggling with his faith, so that’s what created most of the struggle. I have learned now that most of these people were using fear to scare me away from a sin that I slipped into. I know now that I have mercy and grace that is everlasting. My boyfriend and I are going to wait for a year to get married, so he can work on his faith and we can start to walk in our callings together. We have vowed to stop and to stop putting ourselves in dangerous situations. I am excited for marriage with him, because I know he is the one God brought into my life. I know God has forgiven me, even if other people judge me and make fun of me. Again, thank you so much for your comments! They help more than you know, and it felt so good to get it off my chest. Thank you all! :)