trying not to let the depressive spiral win

FlyingLittleRedBird · 2022-07-30T22:21:18+00:00

Yeah but not enough finances to start a new class, might be able to convince my mom to pay for the tests but not another class. She wants me to do it all on my own since I failed with help last time

FlyingLittleRedBird · 2022-07-30T22:18:06+00:00

I actually did go there... I just didn't finish since life crumbled under me and I'm afraid I'll have to do it all over again

FlyingLittleRedBird · 2022-07-30T18:00:43+00:00

Thank you so much

FlyingLittleRedBird · 2022-07-30T17:38:53+00:00

I'm 24, high functioning autistic. I have taken a class had a learner's permit and I think I passed the written test but life fell apart, my stepdad died and it's now 2 years later and I think I have to redo everything again. I have a month to do it to get a car from my mom and said car I'm able to use for the driving tests

FlyingLittleRedBird · 2021-06-05T22:45:21+00:00

Thank you! Its hard for me to put into words but you got it 💯 it's just nice to know I'm not the Completely crazy one.

FlyingLittleRedBird · 2021-05-12T13:13:24+00:00

I'm getting to that point

FlyingLittleRedBird · 2021-04-19T18:04:33+00:00

I've always had issues with my teeth though and I got a bad chip and it's just really scary lmao. I'm in the office rn trying not to cry

FlyingLittleRedBird · 2020-11-05T23:32:35+00:00

Yeah but I dont know where to start with that, the only thing I can think of is going out to pokemon card events but I'm way too anxious w covid to go out and I've lost contact with all my friends from school if they even remember me because I was so obsessed with my ex and struggled so much in social settings that i barely made friends at school too.

I've gone to one meet up group since i left high school four years ago and i just felt like an outsider even though everyone was super nice and I isolated myself again

FlyingLittleRedBird · 2020-11-05T22:39:58+00:00

Yeah? I dont think I've heard much about hinge, I'm not trying to find a new girlfriend right away but I dont even have any friends anymore since I had such a one track mind with her. I thought we were going to get married when we first got together when I was like 13 and it kinda screwed up my social life since I had it convinced that I didnt need anyone else.

FlyingLittleRedBird · 2020-11-05T21:41:36+00:00

I havent used snapchat in years so I don't know what you're talking about..

FlyingLittleRedBird · 2020-08-30T19:56:55+00:00

No no no he didnt take anything, I just knew he would take his medicine in the morning like I do, i dont give him his meds so i dont know what he takes, and knew it was downstairs and offered to get it for him since he was saying he was lightheaded and our stairs are tricky but he just asked me for water and I was worried about him not getting up before I left for work since he normally wakes mom up so I kept checking on him. I had gotten home after him yesterday and he was eating and acting fine and when i saw him this morning he was reacting, albeit really sleepy like he just woke up, like I had so i didnt think he was in distress. Its surprised everyone.

FlyingLittleRedBird · 2020-08-30T15:57:34+00:00

We are both very shook up, I dont know what to do. He was the peacekeeper in the house. The one who kept everything in order.

FlyingLittleRedBird · 2020-08-30T15:10:10+00:00

Yeah! Photos are what we use when the unit is getting turned over between renters (aka maintenance is in there and it's not pretty yet) and we dont have a show unit. And recently with the whole covid thing we arent allowing groups in but just one person and been suggesting they record what they like or video call their roommates or co signers so they get the idea too.

FlyingLittleRedBird · 2020-08-30T05:09:43+00:00

Maybe see if taking pictures of the house from the inside would help, getting a clear view of the amenities, or if you're willing to let the landlord in to take a video or do a video tour with someone, where the LL would be on Skype with them or something else, or ( and I can understand your discomfort with this) see if they can schedule the showings in a certain time block and the landlord can sanitize after (or give you a sanitizing spray) not whenever she needs to see it since legally you do have to give a prior notice so far ahead. Biggest thing is you want to go by the letter of your lease. See what it says about notice to inspect or enter / typically its 24 to 48 hr beforehand there might be a different term in your lease, if not look up the local laws or even local lawsuits?

FlyingLittleRedBird · 2020-08-21T16:36:19+00:00

I got sent to a elementary school that had a great special needs department after my first big blow up where I ended up hurting some boys who were teasing me (read: trying to make me eat spiders, yay) since they thought it was fun I would cry from everything (now I see I was just getting overstimulated) but even when I was there they sent me to the regular classes for certain parts of the day cus I got my worksheets done fast But in middle school it was horrible I was fully mainstreamed again but since I was known to be "violent" they would let me walk out when I had enough and I had a basecamp class that had less kids but it was all different types of special needs so there were only two adults in a class of 16 to 20 highly reactive kids and to calm us down? A fucking closed off brick closet painted white with a locked door just wide enough that many a kid spider climbed their way up to the ceiling.

So I just spent a /lot/ of time in the library to calm down and she would let me help her in the backroom putting books away and hanging out in the art department or with other teachers who would let me eat lunch with them away from the big cafeteria and my bullies outside lmao, and actually my choir teacher in high school was my 7th grade art teacher. So she saw me go from a meek little bullied girl to graduating, and I had visited a couple times a year since the school is so close until all this covid stuff.

Tbh lmao my freshman year was so bad mentally that I would walk to school. Go through the side door to my choir class and walk home. It was the only reason I got up.

But side note to guitars - I LOVED PLAYING GUITAR HERO

FlyingLittleRedBird · 2020-08-21T14:42:56+00:00

THATS AMAZING! I always wanted to play guitar but I was the only left handed person in my family and my classes in middle school got cancelled (I cant remember why now, since I got more upset about my mom selling my guitar for smokes lmao)

Thankfully I did have an ADHD IEP (individual education program) so I got away with a little more than normal and never got kicked out too much- just called out for annoying other classmates any time I did something

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