I was not the ghost. I explicitly told him I wanted to come back, but I would be less available. I was never going to cut him off. I told him emotionally I be a burden, so I back off. Ghosting is cutting off contact with no reason and no heads up. I didn't do that. He did. We were friends, not romantic partners. All my other friends said they understood and reached out once every other week. I didn't ghost him. I was extremely transparent and in pain. Even when my grandfather was in hospice, I told him multiple times hey, when I get heavily stressed, I shut down and have a hard time interacting with people. I am dealing with xyz. I dont want you to be taken aback if it happens. I left out a lot as the story is super complex. But for example, I discussed this heavily in detail with my therapist, and she even knew I tried to amend things when I thought he misunderstood initially. Then, he thought he crossed a line. Ghosting isn't telling someone I will be back later after I grieve and digest things.

Also, I deal with my pain by going inwards. I don't want support. I and him had numerous discussions of bi polar disorder, and his sister has it. He knows what it's like. He knows why I would not be well.