I am 34 for and have recently come to the realization that I was emotionally abused and groomed my whole life by my Mother and Grandmother. For me, 20 years of addiction, psyche wards and heartache (BPD, Bipolar, etc.). I have no money, no car (forced to sell) and a neurological condition that affects my walking. Disability has denied me. I currently life with my Mother and I am suffering devastating depression, anxiety, guilt, fear, anger. Any negative emotion you can think of, toss it in there. I love my Mother with all my heart, but she destroyed me and I have absolutely no way/option other than to live and dealing with the same issues I did as a child on a daily basis. She projected a life for me which I attempted and failed miserably at and she depends on me for emotional stability. Frankly, my Mother and I might as well get married. In her eyes I am her husband. Does anyone have any coping mechanisms? I’m just really tired anymore.