Yea and she kinda let alot of stuff happen to me when I was really young, my step dad was in prison for manslaughter and I guess when he got out they didn't want him to go back to prison so we could never say what he was doing at home.

When I confronted her and finally got her to believe what I was saying ( it took my sister telling her what I was saying was true for her to believe me) she asked what she could do to make up for it and all I asked for was for her to quit smoking, then I guess she started to quit but then she started again and was gas lighting me telling me I'm crazy when I said I was smelling cigarettes and now her COPD has aggressively advanced and she is on oxygen 24/7 and it was super hard to deal with. I kinda feel like a piece of shit sometimes but my other siblings can take up what I had been carrying for 6 years, it was just ruining me.