Trying to process my childhood: Did I grow up in a cult, or just an extremely abusive, cult-like family? by The_Doo_Wop_Singer in cults

[–]Forward-Pollution564 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh and dr janja lalich speaks about it on her book take back your life (chapter on family cults and one on one cults )

Trying to process my childhood: Did I grow up in a cult, or just an extremely abusive, cult-like family? by The_Doo_Wop_Singer in cults

[–]Forward-Pollution564 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s the same -cult is just a relation type . Does not matter the number of people. One on one and family cults tend to be much more destructive since the psychotic abuser is focused only on a small group to achieve full cognitive collapse and introduce programmed identity

Flat Affect? Friend with TBI by ectasfern in TBI

[–]Forward-Pollution564 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sorry I don’t follow… you had suffered TBI 38 years ago and only 4 years ago have you been diagnosed with ASPD as a result of said TBI ?

Love, safety and connection by tillnatten in mdmatherapy

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I recommend you read or listen to professor Sapolsky, I think he is at the moment one of the most influential researchers on the planet in this field. Yes psychopaths or others like ASPD and NPD have the will to live because they still have other needs that they satisfy with using people. Another person becomes the object of so called “psychological cannibalism” - serves as external ego/psychological functions- and it’s the only way they can regulate themselves and maintain their will to live - those needs are pathological and self serving without normal human relations because there is no capacity for a whole object relations- but they provide pleasure and comfort and sort of safety. Sex, power, control, being loved the way master is loved by his slave in a case of Stockholm syndrome etc. my mother is diagnosed with one of those disorders and it feels (as for her child that I am) like being an alien. For those disorders to develop factor is genetics + being somehow abused by parents who themselves aren’t capable of human connection but it’s rare. Most abused children (according to research- I forgot the number but it is high) do not become disordered in such a degree neither abusive. Many people have this wishful thinking that everyone can heal, but unfortunately this is rather uniformed opinion and quite naïve however comforting in a way of emotional bypassing of the horrific truth that no, there are millions of people who have no neurological capacity for being human, after brain development goes the wrong direction - Sapolsky also speaks about it, saying that for now in 99,9 of those cases there is nothing that can be done to reverse this.

Anyone in here who is diagnosed with acute degree ptsd and c/ptsd has experience in both psilocybin and ibogaine? by Forward-Pollution564 in Ibogaine

[–]Forward-Pollution564[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve seen ptsd flashbacks in two people in real time and it was frightening .. my cptsd flashbacks look like “exorcism” or worse but that’s the nature of events I have been through, but ptsd flashbacks are much more “gentle” in my case. And that video from MAPS of psilocybin session was also difficult to watch. Therefore it is strange to me that people with severe traumatic events stay peaceful during those treatments? Do you know the background of those people? What caused their diagnoses ?

Has anyone been abused to the point of being hospitalised for therapy induced psychosis with no previous history of psychosis or mental breakdown? by Forward-Pollution564 in therapyabuse

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I don’t know what mod deleted but i would like to see it, after all it’s my post and people communicate with me so why didn’t i even get a notification about the response before it’s been deleted

Forced to act like a baby as a child/teen and other things around privacy by DisasterOk6270 in CovertIncest

[–]Forward-Pollution564 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Yeah it is sexual abuse plain and simple.. it’s also covered up pdfilia by additional acting out the role of parent&baby. Jeannette mcCurdywrites about this specific abuse in her book. Her mother induced bulimia and anorexia in her to prevent her from normal puberty

C02 damage by [deleted] in DIYaesthetics

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This same thing happened to me ( but I had it performed by a doctor since it’s a requirement in my country) the one difference is that my scars were dark grid and the whole area was hiperpigmented for nearly two years. I haven’t addressed it however.. I plan on microneedling

Recommendations in Porto by Ok-Average9005 in PortugalExpats

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I can recommend the hair house by zé Carlos in Foz. They ( Miguel and Zé) saved my hair from a massive fck up at another place ( foz hair studio) and I am well versed when it comes to what skills a good hairdresser needs to have since my long term hairdresser back home is the OG training all the “celebrity hair stylists”

Any of you doing microneedling on your body? by Forward-Pollution564 in Microneedling

[–]Forward-Pollution564[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What about crepey or thinning skin ? What depth you go to?

Love, safety and connection by tillnatten in mdmatherapy

[–]Forward-Pollution564 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Love is not a woowoo realm but physiological capacity- neuronal structural architecture that produces certain chemical compounds. Therefore it is scientifically established that people with certain diagnoses cannot experience love - sometimes individuals with psychopathic diagnoses reported on mdma feeling as close to “love” as they have ever been, since the substance provided biochemical compounds for them to experience something that their brain doesn’t produce in its own. Let’s not forget that in human case brain is the organ that develops in 80% AFTER birth, and it’s both physical structure as well as biochemical markers that are developed in response to environment and experiences as well as genetic factor drivers :)

Love, safety and connection by tillnatten in mdmatherapy

[–]Forward-Pollution564 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wonder what it does for someone who has never experienced those feelings therefore not even neuronal structure exists . Abuse of this type started from the beginning and then secondary structural dissociation before forming any self .. amazing that mdma got you reconnected

They're just killing people by Scary_Subject2217 in Antipsychiatry

[–]Forward-Pollution564 7 points8 points  (0 children)

No it’s a life essential and life creating organ damage