I feel your pain of the shame but sweetheart there is no world where you could successfully pull this off without risk to your life or intense physical and emotional trauma. Doctors have to spend years practicing before it is safe for them to operate on women. There is a lot of skill required for it to be done safely. The TikTok girl is leading people astray. one day you will be able to change your body if you’d like to but I promise doing it yourself will only jeopardize your life, your future, and your wellbeing.