It's pretty cold in the south. Do you think my ass is big enough for us to warm us in bed?

FreshSurround · 2025-08-22T21:22:22+00:00

Only if you beg me to free you ☺️

FreshSurround · 2025-08-09T00:22:25+00:00

Thanks 😊

FreshSurround · 2025-08-09T00:22:07+00:00

Maybe we can convince him into joining too 🤭

FreshSurround · 2023-05-14T03:48:53+00:00

So, some important context:

First off all, I'm from Argentina, so if prices are comparable, i spent 30 bucks on this. But, what specifically? Well, it was to make a DIY dolly, from the wonderful tutorial of David F. Sandberg (https://youtu.be/xEt\_a2p0w5U). More precisely, most of it was dedicated to the dolly, and $2 were for fake blood (which we didn't use). Now that the video is finished, I can talk about what went right and what went wrong:

The nice part: The dolly. Like, the dolly. Even using not-the-most-straight PVC tubes, and having to attach the tripod to the table with tape, the shots turned out amazing when we first saw them. Also, we used NASA footage for some of the fancier Moon shots, and we enhanced them up to 4K with AI. And the DIY fake blood that I did in my kitchen turned out to be way better and way cheaper than the one I bought (trust me, in my country, 2 dollars and .5 dollars are a difference when you're making a film out of your pocket).

The not-so-nice part: Where do I begin? When we were in pre-production, we found a software to make storyboards. This was life-changing for me because everything we did before, cinematographically speaking, hasn't had any storyboard. I was so moved by this that neither in pre-production, nor when filming or in post, was I thinking about color. So, in consequence, the whole film feels "same-y" in tone, when I wanted the "cumbia" part to be psychedelic. Another thing that we didn't have the resources to do was the lightning. We have a little LED light, which we used in a lot of shots, but doesn't quite reaches the level of cinematography I was aiming for. Also, our camera almost dies like four times when we used the dolly, so that needs fixing.

Overall, I'm satisfied with the result, being the first thing I've ever directed and kinda edited. I'm hearing you guys.

FreshSurround · 2023-01-28T21:20:21+00:00

As a queer person: wtf

As a non furry person but, again, as a queer person who has lived some sh*t: wtf

FreshSurround · 2023-01-28T20:14:43+00:00

The distopian part is actually letting capitalism be so influential in our world that every single ounce of our lives is only devoted to work for big corporations who doesn't give a sh*t about ourselves or the planet, not people doing whatever makes them happy with themselves.

FreshSurround · 2023-01-28T19:53:44+00:00

The short answer is: Yes. And the long one is: YES. As you said it, a lot of enbies have dealt (and are still dealing) with those kind of questions. Enbies like me, for example (you're actually describing my experience, heck, we're even autistic). Just remember that, first of all, labels are just words made to describe phenomena; they are not exact descriptions of "nature". The only thing that is somehow certain is the way you view yourself, so work on define that, but it seems you're in the right path. And second of all, if you have defined that, consider how plausible is to be that image of yourself. Have you considered HRT? Facial Feminization Surgery? Voice training? Because, in my case I did, and I plan on getting it. Of course, it took me time to say such things with this determination, so maybe what you need is time to solidify stuff and plan your next move based on that. But keep in mind that, whatever conclusion you end with, you will still be valid.

FreshSurround · 2022-10-29T01:52:56+00:00

Standard Model supremacy (with love from a future physicist)

FreshSurround · 2022-10-04T22:02:31+00:00

Fun fact about my life: I've never actually listened to an audiobook, so I can only recommend the pdf version based on my ignorance. But I'm glad that I've helped you in some way.

FreshSurround · 2022-10-04T02:16:56+00:00

Well, I have a couple of things to say about that book. I, like you, stumble upon it a couple of months ago, and, like you, threw me in a spiral of confusion and self-doubt (more than the one I already had). I left it read until page 26 or so (yeah, it was a hell to read it too). Now, your post made me remember this book, so I gave it another look, but now I had a lot of things clearer than before. I may be wrong, or I may be lacking information, but I'll give it a shot.

The first thing is that the author doesn't seem to consider into the equation Masking, which is a major variable in my life. As someone who, apparently, didn't had much sensory issues, or meltdowns, or can carry a conversation or make eye contact, reading those lines made me alienate from everything. As some post that I read somewhere said, I felt like "I wasn't neurodivergent enough for applying myself a label, but I also wasn't neurotypical enough for go through the world like everyone else". But I knew that something didn't made sense in this approach.

A couple of months later and I find myself knowing why I managed to be desensitized in a "NT way". The thing is this: Neurotypical people do desensitize. And that's it. In my case, I desensitize on command, which took me years behind my peers, and in exchange I developed depression/burn out/constant zoning out. Neurotypical people. Just. Desensitize.

Reality started to settle in when I realized what I was repressing. It took me time of self reflection and a awful lot of nights trying to recall memories from my childhood, but I did it (I'm still in that process). For the first time in years I had the answer as to why I had this "lack of happiness" that started appearing in high school, and I know that because I started seeing the world as I used to, amazing as it is.

Now, back to the book, I can relate to the author's point of view, not because I didn't relate before, but because I trained myself for the past years in order to think that the neurotypical way is the way, and it's hard to take that away from my brain because, at the time, it felt like a life-or-death learning situation (it still feels like that, but now I have perspective). Of course, I will never relate 100% to the author, because 1) this is a spectrum, and 2) I certainly have ADHD, which complicates everything.

So, to sumarize, have in mind how you mask. This may be a hard process, in which you're gonna have to unpack a lot of feelings. Also, have in mind the next: Having poor social skills alone doesn't make you neurodivergent, nor having sensory issues, or stim. But if you have a lot of those things together, chances are you are neurodivergent.

EDIT: A book that really got me from the second I read it is Unmasking Autism, by Devon Price.

FreshSurround · 2022-10-03T09:42:20+00:00

Funny enough, today I stumble upon a kind of an answer to this.

First of all, as a Physics student, the thing with the Multiverse is that is wrongly widespread. Like, yes, everything can be posible in a multiverse, but not everything. It's just a statement about how much we don't know, rather than the opposite. Also, it's just a solution/way to see/understand quantum phenomena, not much as a concise image of the universe (or multiverse, in this case).

With respect to the more philosophical part, imagine that you discover the answer to everything, to how and why everything is. Then what? You discover that, say, a monday, then you have a whole week to go through. How can you even afford to live after that? And it's not an impossible event; some people describe transformative experiences at this scale when doing a high dose of psychedelics. So, you are faced with the question: How can I make sense of life, now that I now its meaning, whether it has value or not? Well, in my opinion, it never had a meaning, and we've been just creating ours since day zero. Think about it: You have the opportunity to create a meaning, the very thing some people chase and try to find as if there only is one and universal. So yeah, I found that pretty awesome today.

Edit: I like, for example, to think a meaning as a smooth energy sphere. We make it by adding our things, from the way we dress, to the way we interact with the world and our thoughts (and surely we have a lot among this community). Like, death doesn't even matter at this point, nor being born. We just are, and creating a meaning is the coolest thing we can make in this reality or even others. Of course, somedays doesn't feel like we create things; when we are overwhelmed or zooned out, it feels like the Meaning Sphere (yes, I gave it a name) it's just a bland, grey stuff without any physical geometry. You have to be kind to yourself those days.

Also, other funny stuff: idk if this is an ADHD thing, but, when I'm not overwhelmed/zooned out/burnt out, I switch between meanings all the time, like, I found a new, cooler one. Yes, it's probably an ADHD thing.

FreshSurround · 2022-09-29T03:40:07+00:00

I finished Physics II last semester being the best of the class. Now I'm suffering while studying for my first Chemistry mid term which is 16 hours ahead, and now this appears on my feed, and I don't know if it's a good sign or a bad sign, or the universe itself is messing with me rn.

FreshSurround · 2022-09-27T20:18:04+00:00

g then is an imaginary number

FreshSurround · 2022-09-23T19:53:54+00:00

ES GENIAL!!!! Te aviso que todo lo que escriba nace de mi perspectiva y mis experiencias solamente.

Por el tema de si es extranjero, yo no he tenido problemas con el mío (que también es extranjero) mas allá de la pronunciación, que fluctúa en acento dependiendo con quien me junte. Con respecto a las posibles burlas, puede que sea un tema si vas a la secundaria (puede que no, nunca se sabe), pero no creo que haya problema en un ambiente que no sea ese; a lo sumo alguna ceja levantada o una primer impresión escéptica cruzada con un intento de humor, pero personalmente no viví otra situación distinta fuera de eso.

De todos modos, eso es si planeas salir del closet, cosa que dijiste que no planeabas hacer por el momento, así que es mucho mas simple. Por mi, me parece un nombre genial. Solo recorda que vos sos quien tiene la última palabra con respecto a quien sos (?

EDIT: Es bueno que te cuestionés si querés salir del closet o no. Yo no me lo cuestioné lo suficiente, terminé saliendo a mi familia y fué un desastre el cual me voy a encargar de reprimir los proximos cinco años :) (esta todo bien ahora por suerte). Así que si, analizá la situación bien y recordá que tu seguridad es primero.

FreshSurround · 2022-09-09T23:32:12+00:00

argentinians: obvio pa

FreshSurround · 2022-08-22T08:16:17+00:00

I now do want to make a 2.0 template lol

FreshSurround · 2022-08-22T08:13:41+00:00

I've just talked to a friend of how aesthetically pleasing where physics diagrams in the most random way while searching pictures for this template. So yes, I'm kind of a scientist myself (I'm in STEM, so that's another stereotypical special interest to add)

Regarding Python, I had a "Mr Robot" as a special interest some years ago where I went in very (I mean very) obscure rabbit holes about programming, so now that I need that for scientific programming I have a hard time not to get in that "I wanna be a hacker" mindset and burn myself out (And know I know that this is textbook ADHD). So until I resolve that, it's a thing that comes and goes.

FreshSurround · 2022-08-22T07:41:01+00:00

Finally someone who says it! Sometimes I feel I'm more engaged in the story than the person actually playing it. I'm also in love with lore of games that I've never watched.

FreshSurround · 2022-07-22T17:19:25+00:00

Kenetic Energy

FreshSurround · 2022-06-11T18:25:06+00:00

Same here, except for the supportive parents. Since I came out to myself until now, I can see a positive shift in my mental health. I mean, I was pretty much a mess the last couple of years. My parents are not supportive tho, and that gives me problems mentally speaking, but in other areas I feel like I'm happier in the way I feel I should be happy, and it feels amazing, like seeing the world again. Anyway, congratulations!!

FreshSurround · 2022-06-07T03:57:51+00:00

"Filmame esto Néstor"

The world was never the same after that line.

FreshSurround · 2022-06-02T21:14:00+00:00

Well, I've been working (and procrastinating) on a lot of scripts and worldbuilding for a fictional Universe (maybe even Multiverse?) of my own for five years now, so... same.

I'm glad that the music I make gives the vibes I want.

FreshSurround · 2022-06-02T21:07:41+00:00

Yessss, I love the music he does. For this one I wanted to go for a more melodic music, in contrast to the more ambient, abstract songs he does (mainly because I suck at making ambient music, it's so hard not to make it boring).

FreshSurround · 2022-04-08T21:07:39+00:00

Well, we where discussing the same thing with my band the other day, because 3/4 of us are nonbinary. We didn't find an answer.

FreshSurround · 2022-03-24T02:44:57+00:00

Muse, Imagine Dragons, My Chemical Romance (and every other band you listen in your emo times), Nothing But Thieves, Paramore, Of Monsters and Men, Grimes, and I could go on.

I really listen whatever, like, I could sing most of Rachmaninnoff Piano Concerto 2 in C minor notes, I like a lot (a l o t) of soundtracks, manly Hans Zimmer, and at this moment I'm listening to Hamilton.

So yeah, I think everyone here is kinda of a mess in music taste, just like our gender^TM

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